forget the guitar its just holding me back. i will just do the vocals and add the guitar later as I go.
5 songs (that I LOVE) to work to get me started:
In pursuit by Jackson Dyer
Landlord – Joss Stone
Breakable – Ingrid Michaelson
Use Somebody – Kings of Leon
Under the Bridge – Red Hot Chili Peppers
Waiting on the world to change – John Mayer
and also possibly:
I kissed a girl – Katie Perry
I wanna trust – by Me (maybe? really?!)
This little light of mine (maybe?)
Bottle it up – Sara Bareilles
Bubbly – Colbie Caillat
Blowin’ in the Wind – Bob Dylan
You’re so vain – Carly Simon
We are Family – Sister Sledge
so most people don’t really have to think about breathing and they just breathe.
bio-energetic breathing exercises from anna have helped, feeling safe helps.
relaxation and guided meditations.
so turns out i have lost faith in a lot of things and people. i have had so many disappointments and the most important people in my life have truly and profoundly hurt me, betrayed me and let me down, repeatedly.
I was being so hard on myself for not trusting, in myself, in others, in the flow of life, when i realise now that the whole time it made perfect sense not to! and trying to force myself to be more trusting was only really crazy!
so now i’m working through my fears, getting rid of toxic people who clearly don’t give a sh*t about me, and making new connections with awesome, genuine, real, cool people. making better choices that truly serve me, and rebuilding my faith in myself first.