Mischa1

I never wanted to go to Scotland until I got a boyfriend that lived there. Now I really what to see what Edinburgh is like. I want to see what made him him I guess.

I am in a long distance relationship with a guy from Scotland. I will never go there, it has to end. The only problem is it is hard to end a relationship where the only problem is the distance of the person. I feel like it would be much easier if we just were to fall out of love with each other…oh well.

So, I don’t think that he is really my ex yet, we are suppose to break up on the 27th of September (I know how strange that wounds, setting up a time to break up). We are not breaking up because of some kind of falling out we had, and no one is dumping the other one. It is just the simple fact that he lives in Scotland, I live in Oklahoma, and we might never see each other again that drives us to break it off. I have been thinking of him constantly, but I think that this is because we just separated about 9 days ago. I have never broken up with anyone, and I don’t know how long I am suppose to feel bad for, but I hope that it ends soon because these feelings are killing my happy self.

I just want to get over him, and I feel like half of that will just be seeing that he gets over me as well (I would feel bad to know that I was over him, but he was still not over me). I just want this to end. I love him and I need this to end.