I'm doing 39 things
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6 months ago
And this needs to happen real soon
MisfiredNeurons's Life List
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1. heal myself
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2. Make a living with my creativity
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3. meditate more
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4. not be afraid
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5. Base jump into the cave of swallows
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6. Skydive
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7. put together a portfolio
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8. go to the bottom of the ocean
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9. bungee jump
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10. hike in the mountains
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11. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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12. learn how to identify wild plants and mushrooms
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13. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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14. swim with dolphins in the wild
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15. get corrective eye surgery or lasik
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16. stop procrastinating
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17. explore bdsm
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18. not leave everything until the last minute
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19. collect an oral history of my family
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20. collect more knives and swords
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21. Buy a motorcycle
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22. Live life with joie de vivre
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23. run faster
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24. Be open minded - learn always - listen carefully
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25. Be more tolerant
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26. Go white water rafting
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27. live my life by answering this question every day: "what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"
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28. learn sign language
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29. receive a letter from Hogwarts apologizing for the late owl but informing me that i am actually a witch.
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30. learn a strip tease
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31. go to a comic book convention
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32. Take the Mensa test.
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33. write a graphic novel
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34. Read more
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35. draw more
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36. upgrade my own memory
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37. Reassess my friendships. Put time and energy into those that are a positive influence in my life and distance myself from those that are a negative influence.
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38. Study the Abominable Subjects- sincerely
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39. Write and Draw Erotica
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How I did it
It made me
Free 
How I did it: I did it by deciding to stop wishing I could and find myself a hairdresserI grew tired of living in fear, worried about getting something as simple as a hairstyle- it isnt _supposed_ to be a problem, right? But after spending years living with an irrational fear, I thought what the heck, they have scarves and hat-type things if I should feel the need to protect myself from being stoned. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
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6 months ago
I want to do this but I have a major dilemma about it. I seem to be frequently swamped by people who need help- and I feel happy to help them. But I have begun to realize how much it drains me to be the constant psychotherapist to everyone around me. At one point in my life, the only phone calls I’d get would be from people who needed my help in some form or another. Last year I’d had enough. I suddenly realized I even landed up with a lover who used me as a shrink constantly, and I couldnt take it any more. I shut myself out from everyone, stopped taking any calls and became a complete recluse. By the time I came out of it, I was being swamped with angry messages. This put me further off from socializing.
But I cannot deprive myself of the positive companionship and influence that some people have on me. Or the chance to find such people, at any rate. At the same time, I feel it’ll be a lack of compassion towards someone who needs help if I am to turn them away. (Which is the guilt trip I was put through after the period I spent in recluse). And then again, I am no yogi. I am not yet capable of converting the negative energy I encounter into positive energy- the negative remains negative, in fact converts my positive into negative. So, I figured I ought to know my limits in being able to help people- understand at what point my failure to help them is turning into my own destruction, then stop and retreat.
I’ll consider this goal achieved when the people with positive influence outnumber (/outinfluence?) the ones with all the negative. OR I become a yogi or a monk or certified loony.
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6 months ago
No amounts of rational thought seems able to persuade my stubborn mind to get this pain over with. I could perhaps make an attempt to start keeping a tag. Is there any way 43T will email me every hour to remind me that I set my goal to study?
