I'm doing 39 things
Sadness, is like a drug. You treat yourself with sadness as a reaction to things in life that you don’t want to have to deal with. It feels good soemtimes to be too sad to go to school, or too sad to let people know what’s goign on in your life, too sad to care about anything really. But the truth is, sadness is a choice. It’s ok to be sad sometimes, because its a natural emotion, but I foudn that it’s up to me how long I want to be sad for and what I let it control. I have decided to be happy. It gets me up in the morning and forces me to do what everyone has to do. Being happy, and telling myself I’m happy, has changed my life from not being able to do something, to being able to do anything. I have broken free from the excuse of my non-existance. I am real now, and I’m on the prowl.
MissMichelleMeadow's Life List
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1. get a fun and exciting job
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2. create a new blogging website like toothpastefordinner, but my own
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3. make money doing what i love
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4. get a tattoo of a mermaid
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5. get a sexy tan
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6. quit smoking eventually
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7. purchase a fixed amount of liquer
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8. get a tattoo of a marijuana leaf
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9. get acupuncture for stress
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10. graduate highschool
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11. write something big
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12. overcome the death of my longest relationship
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13. break free from the sadness that makes me feel incapable
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14. be healthy and fit
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15. be beautiful and get paid for it
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16. be a suicide girl
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17. learn how to be happy on command
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18. watch a shit load of funny movies asap
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19. remember to have fun rather than worry all the time
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20. fight that bastard in court and win
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21. get more fit
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22. be less sexual
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23. fall in love
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24. start a band
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25. get rich
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26. smoke salvia
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27. sort out the miscief
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28. make an alphabet of photos
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29. be a mermaid
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30. go to paris
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31. paint more
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32. drop more acid
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33. get drunk and listen to misfits
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34. grow my hair to my arm pits
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35. find out what school I want to attend
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36. go on vacation
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37. write a wicked story
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38. stop hurting people
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39. live with my sister
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I am less sexual! I no longer have a bofriend… as of saturday. It’s now tuesday. I was last sexual 8 days ago. So. I am less sexual than 8 days ago. Now, I am going to try to be less sexual for at least another 8 days, and then im gunna be even less sexual than 16 days of being less sexual! And I wasnt even that sexual in the first place , because usually to be sex-u-a-l is the act of having sex, which I barely even did since it was so quick and unenjoyable!
It’s a nice day for a new beginning. Itt’s a nice day for a white weddinggggg
I feel like I have overcome the death of my longest relationship. I have moved on from him so many times, and gotten myself so far away from how it used to be. I know that my memories of him are just that- memories- and my life ould never be the same even if I tried. I am almost 18 now. I started dating him when I was 13. He was my first. Now I’ve been with like 20 people. Soon, I’ll be out of this town…even further away from him. Soon i’ll be so happy with my new life, that I won’t even think about him anymore. Either that, or he will just pass away from all the drugs he has done and is doing. We can only hope that he finds himself far away from me. And I find myself far away from him.
