Mmmber

When my computer was stolen last June, my online life came to a halt. I’ve missed my goal list and having a place to reflect. I am once again in the midst of a major transition and so I expect I’ll be here much more trying to navigate this new road.

My best wishes to all my 43T friends. I look forward to catching up!

<3

While I floundered this morning, I’ve had a banana every other morning this week. To touch on another goal, I’ve also been taking lunch to work all week and mostly greens. The effort has been helping me make better decisions for dinner as well so I’m feeling really good about my eating habits right now.

On a correlating side note, I’ve been spending my lunch breaks walking (quickly) around town with girls from the corporate office. Networking and burning calories!

When J suddenly decided to up & leave her boyfriend & move out & wanted to get a place together, I had lots of reservations. When w(sh)e decided on the place, I had even more concerns. But I thought she needed me, that I owed her (for giving me a place to stay last year when I desperately needed it) and that if I relaxed and tried to make the best of things that I could make the situation better.

Wrong.

In fact, the situation is WORSE than I imagined it would be. There have been a few “big” things but mostly its just been “little” things on a very regular basis that have left me feeling used, weary, uncomfortable and a little lost. I recognized instantly this was not going to work; that this lifestyle is not the lifestyle I want to be living. I should have said no to begin with but here I am.

Then my laptop was stolen last night. Right out of my room, charger and all. I am beside myself and I am SO done. I need a plan but mostly I need to get the hell out of dodge before I lose everything I have worked so hard for- things, but my peace of mind as well.

A big change is coming.

“There’s a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.”