MoonMoose

I just can’t do it. I don’t know where to start, I don’t have the space to sort, some of my ‘junk’ includes things that I just don’t want to throw out but would use if I had my own private space and could get actually get AT, or it’s of sentimental value to ME, and I’ve failed at this goal so many times in the past – and over so many years – that I have no faith in myself. I feel overwhelmed, and I feel under constant pressure to complete it. So: failure. Big fat failure.

I hadn’t been able to try this for ages because of bad sinus problems over Christmas that seemed to be kick-started by the chlorine in the pool where I usually swim. However, at the end of my swimming class in another (nicer) pool last week, we worked on flip turns and even the little time I’d devoted to them late last year paid off: I was able to swim up to the wall (slowly), flip, and get my feet planted sideways on the wall before pushing off. I’m not very spatially-aware, but I was making contact more often than not. I have to use a nose-clip, though, and won’t consider I can really do a flip turn until this aid is eventually abandoned! But I figure it’s an idea to get the turn into my muscle memory first before being disoriented by water going up my nose!

I’ve been trying to dejunk a little since last Sunday/Monday but it feels like chipping away at a mountain face. The easy way would be to just dump everything out, but there are things to be found amongst the debris: I came across thirty quid sterling in an envelope I was about to put in the recycling bag, for example! I did clear out the fridge and food cupboard whilst I’ve had the house to myself, but I’m not under any illusion these’ll stay uncluttered for long.