I am still working on it. It is becoming more and more important though. Now I am learning how to drive, and I really need to be decisive for driving. Otherwise it can be dangerous!
I really like what Sera had to comment on my last entry (so long ago). She asked me why I’m indecisive. I thought about it, and I think my real problem is that I am a major people pleaser. I always want to please people, and I think that some of the reason I stand there so long, is that I am trying to figure out how the person wants me to decide.
It’s really stupid. And sometimes waht they want differs from what I want (when I know what I want!), and I try to compromise.
Maybe I should stop that. I should just be straight about what I want. Another thing is, when it’s something like buying a gift for a friend, while accompanied by a friend who doesn’t know the receiver, well, in that case I am not trying to people please.
Nevertheless I think people pleasing is a related problem of mine.
I am going on the 28th of this month! That’s only 12 days away! I am SO excited. I’ve wanted to do this for YEARS.
India is a holy place of pilgrimage for me. I also need and want to scatter the ashes of my father and a grandmother in holy rivers there. That is so important to me. I will also get to visit two holy areas (Vrndavana in Uttar Pradesh, and Mayapur in the east). I will get to bathe in holy kunds…and be absorbed in a spiritual atmosphere. Oh I can’t wait! Leaving behind all my worries and materialistic tendencies for a month will be so good…and so relishable and sweet.
I also look forward to the food and some shopping. I do NOT look forward to the mosquitos!
I haven’t done capoeira since I finished my last class in it ages ago (well, really only 1 year).
I’ve forgotten most of it!
Just like with relearning German, my problem here is that I have no one to practice with, little resources, and I’ve forgotten a TON.
It feels awful. Capoeira was fun, cool, and one of my best ways to get exercise!
Help from anyone who has chosen an obscure sport/activity for exercise or fun?
I have also considered picking up:
ballroom dancing (but then I’d need a partner)
bellydancing (at least I don’t need a partner for this)
fencing (my town is small and has nothing here)
yoga (I’m a little interested)
What do you think??