Motivation_

I lost 2 lbs yesterday. im so happy. its actually working. : D
I got a dress for the dance 2 months ago and now it doesn’t fit at all, even thought thats a bad thing, im completely making it a good thing.
My mom did make a comment yesterday that i had a self body image like an anorexic person. I kind of made that a compliment too. Im going to have to start lying to her about how much im loosing, then she’s going to get even more suspicious.
i’m so happy its working. 15 lbs all together!

he is going to be so jealous
He is going to be so thankful

i had a HORRIBLE day today. i’m talking about chips, chocolate, cake, veggie burgers, etc. I absolutley hate myself right now. I was doing so good too. I lost 12 lbs, now i think i gained it all back.
On top of that my mother said she thought i was anorexic because of my self body image. I think my parents are catching on to me, i dont know what to do anymore. Finals are coming up too, how am i supposed to feel good for those?ugh.

Im seriously thinking about the 21 day fast, anyone around 162 lbs (i know its bad) please message me to become buddies. I want to do it with someone.

ugh. i just dont think my body wants to be skinny. I’ve been running 3 miles every day, working out my arms, and cutting down on my food intake. i still dont have the complete motivation to eat nothing yet though and i really wish i did. So for 3 weeks i have been doing this i only lost 8 pounds. i went on the scale this morning and it went back up 4 :/. So i worked out for 2 1/2 hours and i only lost two pounds from that.

this is my last resort. im trying to be anorexic because i have tried so many other diets that havent worked out, and now it seems anorexia isn’t working out either. I dont know. I haven’t been on the site in the while and you guys are great people who are excellent with support and getting me motivated. i guess thats just what i need, a long with a new body.