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conquer my anxiety (read all 4 entries…)
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We’ve been testing different meds, and we finally found one that works. I’m back on top of my game, as far as social interactions go. Now to get some confidence….



conquer my anxiety (read all 4 entries…)
It's 2:40 AM and I Can't Sleep

I feel like I’m taking one step forward and three steps back. My guy friend is mad at me because of my anxiety.

It’s not like I can help it! I’ll be up all night.



conquer my anxiety (read all 4 entries…)
I Went to the Doctor

She diagnosed me with GAD, and gave me medication to help. It takes about a month to work, so I’m hoping it’ll work. :]



conquer my anxiety (read all 4 entries…)
It's Getting Better

I’m managing to go out more without feeling sick. That’s a huge huge step for me.



Get a tattoo
You may say I'm a dreamer

October 8. My mom’s buying me a tattoo on October 8th for my birthday. It’s the word “Dreamer” on my right hip in cursive.

My Dad is absolutely going to flip shit. I can’t wait.



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
Chiapanecas

The Mexican hand clapping song that’s way more difficult that it needs to be. I’m better than this. But I didn’t practice at all last week because of tests and such. I just played for an hour straight, and my fingers have lost feeling, but it’s a good kind of pain. I’m taking a break, doing some class work, then setting out to master this thing.



be able to do 50 pushups (read all 2 entries…)
Routine

And up to 15! Thank goodness for designated work-out time.



be able to do 50 pushups (read all 2 entries…)
Weight Lifting

I can do ten!



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
Back in the Swing of Things

After a trip to Disney World in December, I fell out of practice. But lessons started a couple weeks ago. It feels like I never put it down. I practiced until my fingers bled today.



Fall in love
Bouquet of Roses

It’s been a terrible week, but today at lunch, I was paged up to the office to find a bouquet of roses and a note saying “I hope this brightens your day”

Sweetest thing ever. :]



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
Broken Glass

I’m extremely irritated because I cut my finger open on a piece of broken glass at work today. Now, every string I touch with my first finger is painful.

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master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
Calloused Fingers.

Finally. Guitar is going absolutely wonderfully. I’ve been able to get some great practice in, seeing as I’m not sick this week. I’ve got lessons on Wednesday, and my teacher continues to tell me that I’m doing extremely well. It’s only natural. ;)



stop feeling alone
This Week

This week has been an awful. I think it just seems so bad because my allergies are trying their best to make my head explode.
I’d say my biggest complaint-aside from the sinuses, of course-is the relationships, or lack there of, circulating around me. My two best friends are now dating. I mean, I’m fine with that, but I’m becoming a third wheel. They’re my best friends because I can count on them, I don’t want to lose them. Plus, my friend Mary is having drama with my friend Jake, and I’m in the middle, again. I feel like I’m losing everyone.
I want to sit on my deck with my guitar and just play until my fingers bleed.
I’m still feeling alone.



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
G-string

Another lesson, another impressed guitar teacher.
Even though this week was rough, I managed to get ahead of the game. Guitar is one thing that’s stable in my life; I intend to keep it that way.



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
C-Scale

More praise from my guitar teacher yesterday. I’m moving really fast through what we’re working on, so I get an advanced course.

Who would’ve guessed? xP



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
Phase 1

First lesson was Wednesday, I mastered my exercises yesterday, and experimented with a few chords today. I’ve got this natural talent for the guitar, and my teacher noticed it.

Simply can’t wait for this Wednesday’s lesson.



master guitar (read all 9 entries…)
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I just got off the phone with the man who is going to be my guitar teacher. Lessons start a week from Wednesday!



be less emotional
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It’s times like tonight when I just want to be able to not let my emotions get the best of me. I have no idea how I’m going to accomplish this, but I hope to give it my all.



Lose 10 pounds
Relentless. Different then restless, I assure you.

It’s not the exercise, it’s my lack of self control. I just love food, and can’t stop from eating way too much of it! Any advice?



Make my parents happy
Restless

It seems like my parents will never be happy unless I’m 30 lbs lighter and have straight A’s. I’m hoping to accomplish at least one of these. I already changed my major, so they will support me.



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