I'm doing 17 things
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16 months ago
...the funny thing is why wasn’t this the first thing I thought to put on my list? Maybe subconsciously I don’t think I deserve to be happy. hmmm, I may found some insight here.
MrNotebook's Life List
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1. be self-employed
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2. fall in love
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3. get over her
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4. Let go of the past
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5. live a balanced life
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6. Grow in Christ
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7. develop poetic flow
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8. be fit
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9. get married
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10. change
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11. stop procrastinating
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12. stop seeking the approval of others
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13. Stop living in fear
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14. be comfortable with myself
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15. find happiness
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16. get out of debt
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17. be happy
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Recent entries
Sometimes
16 months ago
I feel extrememly stiff in how I carry myself. Why can’t I just loosen up around others? I get so caught up in what others think of me. It’s certainly time to let go. One of my other “things” is to stop seeking the approval of others. Why should I give a damn bout what others think of me? I’m trying my best to think that what I think of myself is more valuable than what others think. Everyday I will work to shed off a layer of fear.
I'm always fear
16 months ago
for some strange reason believe I’m scared like a small tiny mouse. Here I’m a grown man and I’m thinking tremble like a puppy about stupid stuff. Why can’t I walk and talk like I live to the fullest? My arms when I walk are stiff. I “feel” the stiffness of fear in how I carry myself around others. Fear is disabling me from feeling loose and comfortable. I feel as if I can’t simply be myself. yuck.
