I'm doing 18 things
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20 months ago
...the funny thing is why wasn’t this the first thing I thought to put on my list? Maybe subconsciously I don’t think I deserve to be happy. hmmm, I may found some insight here.
MrNotebook's Life List
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1. be self-employed
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2. fall in love
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3. get over her
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4. Let go of the past
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5. live a balanced life
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6. Grow in Christ
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7. develop poetic flow
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8. be fit
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9. get married
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10. change
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11. stop procrastinating
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12. stop seeking the approval of others
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13. Stop living in fear
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14. be comfortable with myself
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15. find happiness
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16. be happy
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17. get out of debt
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18. be the change i want to see in the world
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How I did it
It made me 
How I did it: I decided to re-define what running is in my mind, rather than looking at it like "ugh, this sucks, this is SO painful", I looked at it like it was the "good guy".I intently kept my focus on the end result, the reward. I would embrace the pain and look forward to a nice cool shower and leaving the gym feeling great, and I mean great!! Read how I did it…
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Sometimes
20 months ago
I feel extrememly stiff in how I carry myself. Why can’t I just loosen up around others? I get so caught up in what others think of me. It’s certainly time to let go. One of my other “things” is to stop seeking the approval of others. Why should I give a damn bout what others think of me? I’m trying my best to think that what I think of myself is more valuable than what others think. Everyday I will work to shed off a layer of fear.
I'm always fear
20 months ago
for some strange reason believe I’m scared like a small tiny mouse. Here I’m a grown man and I’m thinking tremble like a puppy about stupid stuff. Why can’t I walk and talk like I live to the fullest? My arms when I walk are stiff. I “feel” the stiffness of fear in how I carry myself around others. Fear is disabling me from feeling loose and comfortable. I feel as if I can’t simply be myself. yuck.
