I'm doing 20 things
...He was my first boyfriend, for 3 years… I loved him with everything in me… it sucked…so bad when we broke up I went into severe depression, we were always with each other- Go to school together, come home together, stay until 10 for him to go home until the next morning to repeat the process. It has been at least a month or so and it’s… Sucky. It’s difficult because he changed because of the manipulative people around him. My feelings for him are still strong but he keeps hurting me without knowing it. I need to get over him but I don’t want to… I love him still, a lot. But things don’t work out and people change…it’s so sad. If we ever would get back together it wouldn’t be the same and possibly be even worse than when we were together.
I just think he was looking for an excuse all along to break up but…oh well. I loved him. I’m trying to take my time, not looking for a rebound and it’s hard because I just see him and smell him. It sucks. I need to get over him.
