MsHorror

My mother and father had a very abusive relationship that also reflected upon their children. When I was 8 years old my mother, myself and my brother moved out in the middle of the night and fled to a different state. I respect her for trying to give us a better life however her lack of compassion for her children and her self indulgences made it twice as hard as the previous. I look back and I really feel that I would have been able to deal with physical abuse much better than mental anguish. I havent spoken to my father since I was 11 years old, and my mother and I havent had a normal healthy conversation for as long as I can remember. I need to find a way to break the shell so that I can feel somewhat whole again.

I’m incredibly inexperienced with longterm relationships…I generally get tired of guys after a few weeks and walking away…I dont see myself ever walking away from you. I want to give you the world.

Ive learned that I’ve become very good at fooling myself and others around me. People think im the “cute cocky funny girl” when all im really doing is crying inside.