MyDarkSideHantMe

I have done this and ended with the worsth pain i will ever experiance but it is so much more then the pain or anything i have changed as a person i have become more then i ever hoped to be i see the world differently i’m questioning my beleifs on God (i dont beleive in him but that is changing) i just feel as if some of that person is still in me making better making me stronger helping me remember the past so i can move to the future i dont know how to explain it but my fears have left you would think that i would be more affraid to become atached but i dont know its just like i have been through it before and made it out fine made it out better then going in so almost want to go through the entire thing again the love the pain everything because it was such a powerful experiance and i would recommend falling in love for every young old guy or girl it doesnt matter just that you find love that one undiscribable feeling it is truely

my life is finally back on track after i fell in love and then back out but when i was in love and trying to fall out it felt like i was thrown in the washer on spin cycle and every thing was confussing and hard and all i felt was pain but now i am good my friendships have suffered but i am fixing them up but on is gone and i am okay with that because if they dont want to forgive me that is there deal and i am not getting hung up on anything anymore i am focusing on myself right now and my happieness and if they cant forgive me then the friendship would just go bad so i am moving on but at the same time i am ancoring myself down but i am trying to leave no loose ends and there is a lot but i am getting close so thanks to all how gave me advice to get over her and i hope that all of you can become happy and find what you are truly looking for out of life goodbye to every one this will be my last entry for this goal

i was wrong, i loved a girl that i shouldnt have but i did i put her before my friends before my family before my own life and happieness i trusted her with everything i told all of my secrets to her and i now see that she is not trust worthy she has been lieing and telling secrets behind my back so i feel horible because i left my friends for her i thought that she was the love of my life but when i fell out of love wiht her i thought she was my best friend but it only took me a few day to see what she really is what my friends and family told me she was doing and why i got in fights with both of them tring to defend her but she didnt desever it i have ruined friendships that i have had for 11 years over her back when i wanted to be with her all the time i didnt care that i had lost my friends but now that i dont want her in my life at all i care i am sad because i was wrong and did things that i am not proud of and that i can understand if they never want to forgive me but hope they do i am trying to reach out to them again but it is hard because i left them and wouldnt hang out wiht them for over a year i was a different person when i was with her and now i am back to what i was before but i think i will just have to start over wiht a new life i have ruined this way almost so bad that i dont think i can recover i just with that i had relized this a long time ago when i still had a chance to save it all