MyNameIsApril

Its really a life long war I suppose, but i’m glad to say i’ve won quite a few battles. :) I don’t know what happened to me or when it did, but for some reason now its easier to voice my opinion or say what I really feel. I think I may still have trouble finding that thin line of balance… but i’m working toward it. I do feel happier and like a better person though.

I have my own thoughts and opinions and I just wanted to make that heard. I wont let others dictate me around anymore- I am who I am, and I want to show that to people.

So I’ve read every single book on the series and I adored them all. They were really wonderful once I started them and got past the first one or two chapters of introduction. I’m starting to work on re-reading, but that’ll take a little more time now that schools in progress. But I have to say my alltime favorite book was the… hmm…. fifth or seventh book… I didn’t particularly care for the epilogue at the end though. It left me with a few questions.

I wish that being shy or scared was just something you could grow out of. As soon as you turn a certain age, it just all disappears…

I know I can fake self confidence, even some of my closest friends think i’m a little braver then I am when it comes to new people and new situations and any sort of time where I stand out. But really? I’m a nervous wreck half the time-scared people will think i’m strange or weird or something…

Maybe actually making it a goal, will help me to feel as confident as I pretend I am.