Mystic898

This goal was my first weekly goal. I did d it, but with my own whims. I didn’t do it in the desciplined way that I should have.

This is an ongoing goal and since I’ve started off, I’m checking this off the list..

I’m going to run the marathon next year.. and need to get my body to perform.

But none uses it though..

Wierd goal..

:)

But this is a part of being human.. so..

Not to the person I was hoping to sing for though.. but none the less..

:)

Anyways.. more direction of type of job and industry..

Too much on my plate though.. have to focus on this.. future depends on it..

Planning a treking trip for my team since they’ve been so enthusiastic.. time to reward and have some fun! Hoping it works out.. and I can manage the event successfully..

;)

I got an opportunity to earn extra while studying.. but am barely getting motivation to continue it.

I shud just finish it though. Credibility at stake..

1. Being trusted enuf to be given huge responsibilities

2. Friends who care

3. The golden evening

4. Strange things.. like elephants walking on roads.. seriously..

5. Missing someone so much that everything else is scattered..

I know what I wanna do.. but.. u know how life has a way of laughing at ur plans?

Have to start searching though.. too much on my plate!

I’ve not exactly been feeling all that great lately. Been a prolonged feeling. I know it might be depression, it might be to do with the situation I am in, it might be hormones.. whatever.

But I’m ready to smile even though it hurts a lot.

I don’t want to be a sad person.

I have so much to do and so much more to give..

Feeling this way will not help me.

I am a positive nice person, I’ve come a long way.. I just need to make feeling happy a habit..

It’s what we choose to feel.

I choose not to feel sad.

I can’t help it. I’m trying to conciously be strong though..

I just tumbled upon a fact that I belong to a group called HSP ‘Highly Sensitive People’ (and yes, there is such a group – studies have been done abt it..)..

And all the ‘symptoms’ are the same.

It’s something 20 % of the population is intrincically born with.. (Wow.. I dun bel I didn’t know this).

So the thing is, now I know it’s a thing I got.. and getting affected is what happens to ppl like us. I’ve got to try to use it as a positive. And there’s a beautiful positive side to it..

I’m happy and a little skeptical. I’ll keep a tag on how to handle me better.. and over a period of time – i’m sure I’ll be just fine.

Well, I’m sort of feeling a little wierd – cz in 3 days I have to finish the second – and a huge portion for the work.

I better start working on it.

In the end, there’s a lot of editing that need to be done.

Have to mail the ‘mentor’ as well.

There’s so much to do for this and other things.

Well well well..

I’m at a cross-road in my life..

I’m not sure what the hell is going on.. and I’m feeling frustrated in a way.

I probably have to get a markeing job and do freelance writing on the side.

I’m not clear about what marketing job I’m looking for – except I know it has to be a branded company. And I got to be able to ‘culturally’ fit in.

I’m scared to death – honestly – but I set myself free from fear.

I know things will work out in the end.

I’m sensitive.. it’s difficult not to get affected.

Maybe eventually, I will mature into accepting it better.

I don’t know. Cz sumtimes I hurt really bad..

I’ve been doing this excessively.. ever since I found out writing was my passion..

I’ve just discoved what i have studies so far is not what I want to do..

This has to wait til I figure out what exactly I want to do.. and also cz of exams and stuff..

I have to send him the first chapter, according to my timetable..

But I still haven’t gotten paid..

Oh well.. doesn’t matter.. I’ll do my part.

:) I will send it to him my today evening, the chapter.

3. My favourite colour is black and maroon.. but I like orange as well!

4. I like being alone.. don’t unerstand the whole ‘group’ thing.. unless it’s work..

5. I keep thinking.. I used to think negatively, but recently have started thinking positive..

6. I believe we make our own destiny.. really..

7. I ove eating exotic food.. I never thought I was a foodie.. but I realied that I am!

8. I’ve got a wierd sense of humour.. few ppl understand it.

9. When I’m in a group.. I am usually quiet (unless I know everyone well)

10. Ppl think I am mysterious

11. I’m not very approachable (most of the times)

12. I’m fearless abt certain stuff.. I jump right into mess!

13. I am paranoid of seeing blood, cuts etc etc.. and spririts/ghosts

14. I don’t like to ‘dress up’.. I’m one of the most careless ppl I know

15. I want to help ppl.. a lot of ppl.. I’m always for the watchout.. (though most ppl dun know this)

16. I love lists and tables.. anything to bring more clarity

17. I keeo changing my mind abt certain things.. and it’s really irritating!

18. I have learnt how to manage my money.. and not blow it off on unnecessary stuff.. I’m pretty planned abt it.. :)

19. my laptop is tiny.. and I’m in love with it..!

20. I listen to all tyoes of music.. but am mainly into rock..

21. My emotional age is much more than my actual age

22. I don’t like to study in groups..

23. I’m full of ideas.. and it never stops! I scare even myself sometimes..

24. I love writing.. who knows? Maybe one day I’ll publish a best-seller!

25. I’m mainly creative.. though I understand logic

26. I want to be married by the time I am 25 yrs.. (and have a baby by 28!)..

27. I’m less confused than I was a yr ago..

28. I’m not enjoying studying anymore.. :( I want to get out into the world . u know..

29. I’m good at understanding ppl and their problems and come up with great solutions

30. I want to do too many things all at one time..

31. I’ve got only a few close ppl in my life..

32. I think make up is a waste of time

33. I search for truth

34. I sing in the bathroom.. I’m actually pretty decent even (honest!)

35. I know I can do very well in life.. I can be everythign I want to be..

36. I keep learning every day.. it’s phenomenal..

37. I’m only 5 feet tall.. or short..

38. I don;t want to stay in the corporate world ultimately.. want to do something creative..

39. I’m bored of my current haircut.. want to go bald, but lack courage

40. I don’t know how to cook.. but I love to anyways! I think one day, I’ll be very good at it..

41. I keep reading these self-help books.. and non-fiction mainly.. (shud read more novels and stuff)

42. Many times, I smile when my eyes don’t

43. I get bored easily

44. I’ve changed a lot as a person in the last 3 yrs.. I can’t even recognise myself.. the change is gud!

45. I’m writing all these points in one day cz I want to tick off this goal

46. I’m always in a hurry.

47. I’m practical..

48. Differen ppl have differnt views of me.. as a person.. some find me mysterious, some find me talkative,.. yet others find me boring..

49. I don;t read the newspaper everyday (shhh.. I want to though)

50. I’m supposed to be studying for an exam right now.. and do my job thing..

51. I have a very messy planner.. and I follow half of what I plan to do..

52. I dun enjoy attending classes.. I find them pre-mature

53. I don’t have a friend who I can talk to ‘intellectually’.

54. I’m alone.. but not lonely.

55. I’m wierd.. and stand out from the others like a black (tiny) sheep.

56. I wake up at 5:30 am everyday! (new change)

57. I keep trying to improve things..

58. I dun appriciate ‘dumb humour’.. I just dun get it..

59. I love watching movies!!

60. I love spicy food..

61. I’m a romantic

62. I’ve been in a long term relationship.. well.. for a very long time.

63. I’ve only had one bf, and I’m still with him.. :)

64. Sometimes I wish I had done certain things dofferently.. but hey, it;s all abt learning from mistakes..

65. I want to retire really early for the ‘job world’.. but I never want to stop working.

66. I understand the dark side..

67. I know and understand more than I want to right now..

68. Ppl say I shud lighten up..

69. I’ve got nice eyes (ppl say.. )

70. I wear a pearl ring..

71. I’m open.. and divergent..

72. I’m commited to my causes and what I say.. and it makes me feel obliged..

73. I’ve done two internships.. and understand more abt the work world out thr.. and more so abt myself..

74. I’m going to make it big.. just wait and watch..

75. My dream is to travel all around the world..

76. I’m not that close to my family.. except my sister (but I care abt everyone a lot..

77. I finish things fast.. (cz there’s just so much more to do!)..

78. I admire ppl who have the courage to do what their heart says

79. I’m scared of consequences sometimes.. and end up only thinking abt things and not doing them

80. Most of my friends are much older to me..

81. I’m a likble person

82. I can be really mean if I want to be..

83. I’m the queen of sarcasm..

84. I still don;t know where I belong.. but I’m happy for now being a hippie!

85. I’ve spent most of my childhood in Africa

86. Ppl don’t understad me

87. I used to love those wierd flying ballons when I was young

88. I love to organise.. over and over..

89. I like abstract art and mucsic and words.. there;s so much reality hidden there.. which is not really hidden

90. I feel that life itself is a pradox..

91. I know a bit abt love.. and how it can hurt.. and how it can heal..

92. If I have to hit it off with a person, it has to be instant.. or it never happens..

93. I take my time to figure out if I want to get close to a person

94. I hate pretence!

95. I love wacky! Crazy!

96. I’m task oriented.. and hate wasting time..

97. I have a few clothes that I keep wearing over and over..

98. I;m better at starting things than finishing them (but I’m getting there!)..

99. I like the number 3

100. Finishing things make me happy :)