it’s getting stronger and stronger. Am able to do more and more with it, w/o pain. Can skate for an hour & a half, in fact.
It’s really healing wonderfully well.
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Have a sharp, clear mind: get rid of the brain fog
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1 person |
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Stay on top of the paperwork: Bills paid, budget managed, paperwork handled DAILY
2 entries . 1 cheer |
1 person |
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Have a strong, injury-free spine, better than ever
1 entry . 1 cheer |
1 person |
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Have a total BLAST!! again at Burning Man (August 2007)
1 cheer |
1 person |
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build muscle
3 cheers |
347 people |
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run a half marathon
1 entry . 4 cheers |
1,915 people |
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Take action to get my city to clean up its filthy AIR!
4 entries . 5 cheers |
1 person |
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Have amazing, steady, killer self-confidence from my core
4 entries . 13 cheers |
1 person |
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paint my bedroom
4 cheers |
287 people |
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Make hard copies of my digital photos and journals
4 cheers |
1 person |
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Eat TONS of fruits and vegetables!
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1 person |
it’s getting stronger and stronger. Am able to do more and more with it, w/o pain. Can skate for an hour & a half, in fact.
It’s really healing wonderfully well.
Ever get a big hard slap in the face and it was exactly what you needed?
That’s where I am at this moment.
This has to do with the lover I wrote so extensively about under this goal. It was a few months ago. I was totally head over heels for him.
He broke up with me very suddenly about two months ago. Since we move in the same community and are both going to a major gathering together, it will be impossible to avoid him forever.
So he came over this evening so we could talk some things out.
I won’t bother with the details because I’m shutting down around the pain and it’s difficult to write about at the moment. Basically we had had a three-way agreement for an open relationship from the get-go. Suddenly, his other girlfriend/parter/whatever, freaked out & said she couldn’t do it anymore. So he dumped me.
I was telling him I kept thinking I’d wished he’d had the integrity to tell her that his & my connection started with her consent, and so now he had this viable connection with me, and he couldn’t just dump me.
He said, and I quote near exactly, he got what I was saying. But he loves the other one and while he cares about me, he doesn’t love me.
F*CK.
God, that’s awful. How the hell could he not love me?? says my emotional mind. (not the logical one)
But it was exactly what I needed. If there ain’t nothin’ there, then there ain’t nothin’ there. I’m not going to hang around mooning for someone who doesn’t love me. The emptiness, the void really does permit me to move on.
There’s more to say but I think I’m done with this entry, for now.
because it does seem to be mostly or entirely related to my back injury. Which is tremendously better recently.
Thank GOD.