Nannook

To me, cutting is addicting. Just like smoking, and drinking- you can’t stop. I think about it a lot and even though I want to stop I also don’t want too cause I love how it feels and it just lets me go. I do it every night now. There are cuts on my leg, and even though I said I wasn’t going to cut my wrists or arms I have, and there are cuts running up and down them. I don’t want the scars, and I don’t want to have to hide them and make up excuses. But how can I stop when its all I think about? When everything around me is hurting me so much and a few slices of the skin is like heaven to me? I need to stop before it becomes worse.

I have alot of ideas for books but whenever I go to write it, I get bored and i get so FUSTRATED. I want to do this so badly but I can never seem to actually get it on paper. Im 13 years old.