Narcissa

is nobody's cup of tea.



I'm doing 28 things
 

Narcissa 's Life List

  1. 1. Graduate University
    23 entries . 16 cheers
    185 people
  2. 2. Beat my Depression
    71 entries . 114 cheers
    1,963 people
  3. 3. Reflect daily in a 'one sentence' journal
    759 entries . 21 cheers
    273 people
  4. 4. be my own person
    8 cheers
    109 people
  5. 5. Be in a Liverpool Match
    2 entries . 14 cheers
    1 person
  6. 6. buy a homeless person lunch
    13 cheers
    18 people
  7. 7. Conquer my fear of driving
    9 cheers
    186 people
  8. 8. Define myself A-Z
    3 entries . 14 cheers
    43 people
  9. 9. Draw a roadmap for where I want my life to go so I don't lose focus and get lost along the way.
    7 cheers
    1 person
  10. 10. Go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
    12 cheers
    21,507 people
  11. 11. Have 'no internet' days
    23 cheers
    1 person
  12. 12. Have an Athlete's Pulse Rate.
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    2 people
  13. 13. Identify 100 things that make me Happy
    80 entries . 18 cheers
    2,531 people
  14. 14. learn how to bake cupcakes
    2 entries . 13 cheers
    2 people
  15. 15. Leave a mix CD for a stranger.
    16 cheers
    0 people
  16. 16. leave flowers on the grave of a stranger
    6 cheers
    10 people
  17. 17. list my regrets so I can let them go
    3 cheers
    0 people
  18. 18. Ride in a hot air balloon
    13 cheers
    2,729 people
  19. 19. See the Northern Lights
    1 entry . 14 cheers
    19,097 people
  20. 20. Send a message in a bottle
    10 cheers
    4,140 people
  21. 21. Visit Disneyland
    2 entries . 23 cheers
    84 people
  22. 22. Write anonymous letters to strangers and leave them in public places.
    4 cheers
    107 people
  23. 23. Write down the things I love about people; read it when I'm upset with them
    30 cheers
    12 people
  24. 24. 100 Words I like
    2 team members . 74 entries . 12 cheers
    5 people
  25. 25. visit Notre Dame cathedral
    1 cheer
    9 people
  26. 26. Be more patient with my younger brother
    2 cheers
    1 person
  27. 27. Save to purchase the new LFC home kit 12/13
    1 person
  28. 28. tape glow-sticks to a kite and fly it at night
    4 cheers
    20 people

How I did it
How to watch Roger Federer on court
It took me
5 years
It made me
astonished


How to work on My Extended Essay
It took me
2 months
It made me
Proud


How to allow myself to only be treated well by the people I choose to have friendships and relationships with. If they do not, I need to find the courage to move on without them.
It took me
3 months
It made me
better


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Recent entries
Beat my depression (read all 71 entries…)
I met with my therapist today

And we went through lots of things. We talked about how I was coping with my anxiety, and went through the CBT forms that I’ve been filling whenever I get anxious. We also talked about how I’ve been handling mood swings, and if I’ve been feeling depressed after our latest meeting (which I haven’t, but I’ve come pretty close).

I realised why we started off with such a holistic discussion after she arrived at the point. My therapist believes that what’s been fuelling my depression, and developed my anxiety is the fact that I’m such a perfectionist. When she explained it to me, it made perfect sense. I did not have any problems admitting to it, I’ve always been aware that I am a perfectionist, but I never thought that it was a bad thing. In fact, I thought that it was a good thing.

Well, at least this was the case until my therapist explained how perfectionism works, the way it can really bring me down, and how it’s triggered a few of my previous episodes. How it’s led to my constant breakdowns over the past few months, and all my anxiety issues. It made sense how it was all related.

It really hit me then, and I was crying when I realised it. I felt so upset because I thought perfectionism would make me happy. But in fact, it most likely is why I’m making myself so unhappy. I’m in a constant state of frustration, because it doesn’t matter how anybody else views it, nothing that I do is ever good enough. Not for me.

This is why I’ll be approaching my issues with depression and anxiety differently from now on. With the help of my therapist, we’ll work through my issues with perfectionism. I really think this time, it will work out for me. I’m praying that it will.



graduate university (read all 23 entries…)
This is a post completely irrelevant to this goal.

I am feeling very frustrated.



100 Words I like (read all 74 entries…)
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