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I don’t know how, I just know that I’ve grown more confidant with myself this year and it’s amazing.

I’m feeling really good about my technical drawing skills and I get praised for it often as well, so I believe I found something I have confidence in. Yay!

...a very painful one.

I honestly think though that another one of my teeth has become infected or something though, because closing my mouth hurts like…well, it hurts a lot.XD.

but I can avoid it. I was basically keeping myself up with thoughts running through my head all the time. I still have sudden strikes of it, like now for instance (it’s 4 in the morning). But I can deal with it when it occurs.

I just don’t know if the people I see in the morning can deal with it. XD

It’s a wonderful feeling to know that you don’t have to cut. I’ve gotten to a secure point in my life. I remember updating with my friends how long it had been since I cut, and everyone was so proud of me when I was able to say, “It’s been over a year” I’m proud of myself as well, which is great to be.

About a month ago I was going to give up my seat on my flight because they had overbooked but they didn’t need my seat so they ‘upgraded’ my seating, I thought since I was in the very back they were just moving me up or something. I had no idea they were going to put me in first class! Even thought it wasn’t one of those really fancy planes (like the ones in all the pictures) I got a meal and tea (yay!)and the extra leg room was definitely a plus! I got extremely lucky and I highly doubt it will ever happen again, unfortunately.

Not only would I love to learn to ballroom dance, but I would also love to wear the pretty ballroom dancing dresses! lol.

I only smoked for a bit, but quiting and going on with my life was a great accomplishment for me.

I do occasionally remember them as of late, but for a period of at least 3 years I couldn’t recal any dreams I had.

I’ve been doing accounting since sophmore year for a trip to NYC, and I’ve loved doing it ever since. I don’t want to take classes though, because I already have my own method of doing it.

the closest I’ve gotten to this is in the Sims. lol

Unfortunatly my being a pack rat doesn’t help with the goal, but I will work on it!

Unfortunately my wisdom teeth have just been pulled today, and singing is out of the question at the moment…as is eating…or well, anything…meh

Whenever I stand for too long upright my back starts to hurt a lot. It seems like a bad thing, is it, or is the pain because I’m improving my posture drastically, or something?

I would love to have a consistent handwriting. As it is, I change from cursive to sloppy to neat to all caps. As a matter of fact I’d love to type quicker too. Does anyone know how to improve your own handwriting?

I have many lesbian and gay friends, and know many who have dealt with so much ridicule throughout the years. People can be so abusive just through their words, and often times it is unbelievable what people will say.

My insecurity has always been very hard to handle at times, and unfortunately it still is. My friends comfort me when I’m insecure, but though they do help, I still think that I need to believe in myself in order for my insecurities to dissipate.

There are a bunch of things that I’m nervous about doing, things that I have to apply myself to do. So as long as I can avoid avoiding them I think I’ll be okay. XD

I always am told I apologize for things way too often. I want to stop apologizing for every little thing because it lessens the meaning of my apology when I’ve say it so much for other smaller insignificant things.

People can say I’m good at something, but I very rarely believe them, so I want to be good at something, that even I can end up believe I’m good at.