Nina007

Since November 2006, I have lost the same amount of weight and put that back on again.
I haven’t given up , but its effecting many things in my life and I feel that I need to focus on something that will help me lost the weight.
I want to lose 35lb and I have succeed in losing 9lbs but keep putting this back on again because of my PMS, and especially when I am depressed nothing matters and I really don’t care because I cant stop myself from feeling the way I feel and food is my only comfort.
I am hoping to start this diet plan, I am looking forward it but don’t trust myself to keep with it as I failed many times before on many diets and that self belief is gone.
If I didn’t have the PMS I would be fine but I do have it and I know I have to deal with it.
I really want to make this work as this diet takes in consideration everything including exercise and I really want to succeed but I just think what’s different this time why would it work.
I need to voice my thought process as I am doing this and I think that will help me in away.

What is my purpose in my life? I know its not money, I know its more to do with helping people, but I don’t know where to begin.
I know I want to volunteering in a developing country, I do volunteering now but I want to do something more meaningful and come out of the ‘bubble’ and give something truly back in my way and that something will help somebody for the rest of their life and stay with me for the rest of mine.
Enhancing somebody’s life both mentally and physically and just truly giving from the heart. I know there are much less fortunate people in this world. I don’t know why I just feel that’s my ‘true’ calling and each day its getting bigger and bigger the need to do this, and I hope that day is not far away from me.
I do have a plan in my mind how I can achieve this, the thing is stopping me at the moment is finances and once I get that sorted I know I can achieve this.

I want to monitor what I spend my money on. I say this to my self every month that I will write down everything I spend my money one, I start off but never seem to get to the end off the month.
I really believe that I can make more savings on certain things but I need to do my research ie switching to another internet provider, phone package etc.
I really want to do this, because I know I can make more savings but I first need to monitor what I am spending my money on.