Nina19

I have tried countless crashy diets, lost stones in weeks; piled on 2 more the next week, i think everyone knows it- crash diets do not work. whilst it seems more glamorous in the head to be able to walk into work or class stick thin within a week or even a month, it isn’t realistic. The best thing would actually to be to become a skinny person.
Because i have discovered that there are generally 2 types of people (often regardless of body shape really) there are those who live for food, become obsessed with it, over eat in times of stress and just think about food way too much. Then there are those who by all means enjoy it, but at the end of the day it’s fuel; these people stop when they’re hungry, really enjoy their food but these people when stressed or depressed tend to lose weight, because they are too busy being sad to eat.
So I have been wondering for a long time whether it is possible to become a ‘skinny’ when you are a die hard ‘foodie’ bcause only when you get that mindset will you lifestyle choices really start to change. I believe this is wy fad diets fail because you are punishing yourself for a short while, all the time the foodie inside you is looking forward to eating lots again; am i the only one who’s been on a restrictive diet and written out all the food i am going to eat as soon as i have reached my target weight?
So has anyone got any tips on how to change your mindset from foodie to skinny? i’m guessing it would take a lot of time- i have imaginings of what a skinny nina would be like/look like and i way prefer her to foodie nina- i just want some tips on how to get there. it seems the real difference in mindset is that skinnys think so much less about food, but trying to become a skinny i immediately think way more about food.if that is possible.

gosh i always ramble on.
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I am new to this site, I am not sure whether people here give help and advice or whether it is really just a place to vent frustrations, but I really need help and don’t knwo where to turn, I am also wondering if anyone else feels the way I do, and if so how people are trying to get better.

I’ve recently (through reading a lot of literature and closely observing my behaviour) realised that I have a problem with food. I have always loved food and looked forward to meal times, but it has actually taken over my life. I make sneaky journeys to the student kitchen and cook big pans of rice or soup and then feel the need to make excuses such as ‘oh i am cooking plenty for the rest of the week’ then i bring it back to my room and eat the lot. I don’t enjoy it I don’t taste it, I just eat and eat and I get scared when there isn’t much left- the enjoyment i get is knowing theres loads more to eat and not from the food itself. If i get upset or if I am worrying about my problem i go tot the fridge and eat eat eat. I eat healthily- Brown rice, fruit vegetables, no wheat dairy vegetarian, but this is anything just shows the extent of my problem. I have becoe fat on really healhty foods because i just eat so ridiculously much. for example the other day I ate: 4 big bowls of porridge (oats and water) 10 vegetarian sausages, 6 tomatoes, 2 bowls of brown rice and 10 apples and a whole fennel bulb. I cram myself I feel so sick, but I just get so helpless and depressed and when i am eating Ifeel nothing except guilt which cn only be numbed by more eating. I am out of control.

I am 5 ft 3 and weigh 9.5 stone. I’m 19 and feel like I should be having a fun life but this is impossible- i dont like drinking as i want to save the calories for food which i think to myself is more fun. I dont like going out because i look rubbish in clothes. I have a really skinny mum and sister so dread family occasions and I dream of being thin, my thin alter ego even has a name and I look at the clothes she would wear in shops and i base my future around being skinny and happy and light then i come home (as quickly as possible) and eat eat eat and then when i am so full i cant move I take some spinach and quorn pieces into the kitcen, grill them put them on a little plate and eat in front of my housemates.

i hate myself, i am deceptive and greedy. but really deep inside i know i am not like this, i just have a terrible relationship with food. i would way rather we could just take 3 pills a day and never have to worry about eating because i could do that i just cant do moderation.

please can someone suggest something that will help me. I am at my wits end. I dont want to see a doctor because i am so scared of making this a massive issue. but it is a problem. I have friends who love food but they dont plan their lives around eating it, thinking about it and they dont get fat becaus ethey stop when they’re full.

help please!! thankyou to anyone who actually read my entire ramble.