NoraCatX3

Yeah I guess you could say my life sucks a pretty big testicle. I’m just 14 and I have already gone through crap that my own mother never did experience at that “tender” age. I have practically suffered every sort of abuse you could imagine from my dad. Then there was the whole drugs and booze that he was addicted to. I watched my brother try and commit suicide when I was 7. I still remember every christmas sucking more and more, the most recent included a brother somewhere in LA, dad that had been kicked out, mom that was on the verge of losing her mind and me the one who was responsible for it all. See I was little miss bad ass in the sixth grade. I made sure to make everyones life a living hell, it destroyed me and my brothers relationship and led me into a really dark life. Karma was then the biggest bitch to me, the people who where once my friends now hated me and I was finally alone. Then came seventh grade when bullying was at it’s breaking point and I took the decision to end my life. By the way it didn’t work. But it did leave me with scars other than the ones on my wrist. I now have depression and a anxiety problem and I cant seem to get any help. I’m really good at hiding, whenever i would tell people they would get all doe eyed and talk in a monotone voice, it’s like okay yeah I have had a really shitty life but that doesn’t mean that I will commit suicide this very second. I usually use comedy to help with my anxiety woes, and I say it proudly that I was voted class clown of ‘08 so theres something to talk about. But for now I don’t think I’m going to become some whinny emo kid over my past.

well yes I have directed a movie (two) but they where both kinda low budget and crappy but does that still count?

well I’m going to be “freshmeat” this fall and I’m sort of terrified. I don’t want to be terrified because I’m not even there yet :/ I would just love some info about high school. My brother is a junior and sadly he was mister popular and I guess you could say that I’m following him in his footsteps. But the thing is, life is total different for boys and girls, so I don’t think my charasmatic self will help much. I don’t plan to be one of those stereo typical mean girl I actually hate those kind of girls but for some reason they worship me?!!! and personally I don’t want people to think that I am one of them :o . I’m going to a small charter school which people say is WAY different than regular high school.Is that true? I need help://