Robert Avila

We broke up in August 2006 and had been together for 8 months…it’s a short period but many things happened. Without sex we had tender moments and I enjoyed many new expiriences with her. She claims that I changed but I dont see how. She hides the truth from me and as much as I try to forget, I cant help but wonder what she’s doin or who she’s thinkin about. I sit in my room drawing and writing poems to make myself feel better someway but it’s not enough. I dont regret a minute of my time that I spent with her, but I do regret giving her my heart.

I try not to show any affection
But I find myself calling you each night
I’ve been trying to lead my heart in the right direction
But without you I cant seem to see the light

I’ve always cared for you but why go on and show it
If I know you’re not ready for what I’m looking for
I told you my true feelings and tried to work it out with no regret
But I try hard not to show it anymore

I want to let time pass on by
But its not moving fast enough for me
That’s why I’m writing this while I cry
Because in love and life, things aren’t always how you want them to be

I was on X and coke for bout 2 years…then I found the wonders of weed and primos more relaxing. I’ve stopped and been clean for 3 years. I gotta say tho…I could never have been happier. The reason why I quit was my lil brother…I kno I’ll be a hypocrite if I tell him not to do drugs but with my happiness came pain, minor addiction, and failure. I know I’m better than that and so is my lil brother. Anyone who finds gettin high amusing, I’m right behind you…I know what it’s like and sometimes you need a lil breather in life you know? Drugs helped me get over hard times with my family and much other bullshit. Sometimes you just need that pill, powder, or special plant to get you over those emotional times and boredom.