OpaleyedKali

I have always been weird. Always been emotional and community centered. I wanted to save the world, really save the world. So much so that I would cry myself to sleep. I pray for the other peoples pain that I can somehow feel. I had to learn to distance myself while still loving.

I have had psychic and apocolyptic dreams, but I rarely speak of them because it seems so austentatious. I don’t want anyone to think I am bragging or crazy or whatever.

I’ve been through so much. I went numb for so long that I am really only beginning to feel. It may seem hard to believe this but I want to learn to breathe deeply again and to not be afraid of everything.

I am doing a lot better. I can taste food again. I no longer just feed myself. I enjoy the taste, I can feel the rush of chocolate again and taste the many flavors of lasagna. I realize that I have been holding myself so rigid and so numb to my surroundings that I lost my senses. Now I want to see the world. Not just travel. i want to seeeeee the birds and the trees and feel the breeze. I want to be a part of this wonderful life again and let go of the protective cage that I built for myself for protection. The cage is invisible but so powerful. I have the key, I have the code, now I just need the real courage to do it…

German was my first language.

I have taken 6 years of spansih and need to focus on conversational ( ahhhh I was great in Spain. Okay maybe great isn’t the word)

Arabic is beautiful to me. As beautiful as the culture that it stems from. I love the Middle East and Africa.