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but most have been through my now ex-boyfriend. I don’t think any of them have my contact info, nor I theirs. I need to meet more people on my own, establish my own connections.

Again, I feel like I don’t know where to start. All of my avenues are the same dead ends they’ve always been.

A few days after I posted about being in love in my 1 year relationship, it ENDS. Isn’t that just my luck? Silly things like luck aside, I was given some excuse from him about needing time alone to straighten things out. He can’t be in a relationship right now, blah blah blah. Well, it’s true he lives with his parents, has no job & is not looking for one, and he is emotionally confused with his ex popping up every month to try & wreak havoc. He feels he can’t sort this out with anyone around. I understand it, and yet I can’t understand giving up someone you love to do it. There’s a part of me that feels like he just doesn’t love me like he said, and that’s the hardest part to deal with.

Don’t ever start dating someone a mere year after their divorce. It’s 2 years now, and he is still not ready for a relationship. He should have never pursued me a year ago. I was so content with being single prior to him; I had just amicably ended another relationship & had no interest in dating. I regret ever meeting him.

It’s funny how when these things end, you don’t feel like the bad was worth the good. The experience of being in love is not trumping how crappy I feel right now. I’m not sure what it added to my life other than dashed hopes & crushed feelings.

this option suddenly seemed more real again, as I received some info on how to do it that was quite encouraging. It helps that my boyfriend is open to this also. I really think it’s doable, if not sooner, than later.