It’s been about seven years after the divorce. I’ve traveled a long way. For the first few years, I really wanted to never even think about marriage and dating ever in life. I wanted to live single for the rest of my life. Then, as the wounds heals little by little, I began to notice the little clues the universe is sending me. A guy that smiles and says hello, a young man tries to start a conversation, a gentleman made my heart wishing I had a husband or a son like him, finally a few dates (pretty bad ones but nevertheless progress).
I wonder where life is headed the next.
Ok. Start to feel a bit lethargic, added eggs, tofu.
It was a little tough on weekends, but still managed to do so.
Tomato, bell pepper, peanuts, crispbread for lunch works a lot better than a subway sandwich. I didn’t feel sleepy in the afternoon.
The jazz class I signed up will start in July. It’s on Tuesday and Thursday night. To get myself ready, I am going to start doing stretches on Tuesday and Thursday nights.
I am waiting for a voice teacher to call me in September about her schedule. Meanwhile, I still have the Kodaly 333 exercises, am working on that when I ride on the subway. Reading a score and singing seems really intimidating to me, and this helps to conquer the fear.
The best friendships in life are gifts from God. I have several lifelong friends who are very different from me. If it weren’t because of God’s work, we would’ve never met. But here we are. Yet some of the people I tried very hard to make friends with never worked out.
I look for friendships somewhere but God has his plan.
So far I’ve been good at stretching Monday thru Thursday, but slip off on the weekends, as my workout routine slips off. I plan to stretch tomorrow (fri) right after work, and for Sat and Sun, I think the best thing to do is to stretch in the morning, right after I get up.
Read in an article today that our brains restructure the memory when we sleep. It needs some protein and vitamins. So I’m eating a turkey sandwich at dinner time and later on snack on some blueberries. I’ll see how I sleep tonight.
What I like to do is to work in an environment where people are focused on their own development and goals, instead of pulling others down to make themselves look good.
For some reason, I haven’t been very lucky in career. I’ve always had a job, but I have always encountered predators, sharks instead of true professionals.
This is what I like to change about my career.
I did follow through to get to bed early last night with chamomille tea, but I woke after about four hours. I got up, drank some water, tossed and turned for another two hours or so before falling asleep again. I did manage to get to REM sleep because I dreamed when I fell asleep the second time.
Now I need to find out why I always wake up in the middle of the sleep cycle.
I like to have a healthy brain for as long as I live.
No Alzheimer, no dementia, no senility. Be able to remember people, things, places for as long as I live.
I’m going to try this for today.
I had trouble sleeping for a while, can only get up to 5 hours of sleep a night. That’s no good.
I want to enjoy 8 hours of uninterrupted, sweet, rejuvenating, deep sleep every night.
I like to start going to work 30 minutes earlier, and then take a 20 minutes power nap after lunch. So when I wake up in the morning, instead of thinking, “oh gee, i’m so tired”, I can say to myself, “let’s get to work now, so you will have time to nap after lunch ;)”
I am thinking about going to grad school, have no particular field in mind. I have too many interests. What prompted me to seriously think about going to grad school is that I realized education level is directly correlated with longevity and good health.
Yes, I want to go to grad school for longevity and good health. Now I need to choose a field.
I love being in a library. Whenever I sit in a quiet corner in a library, my head and heart calm down. My problems seem small, because somehow I have the assurance that there is a higher power that will supply me with all the wisdom I need.
If there’s something that needs to be done, or if there’s something I want to do, get it done asap. Don’t wait till tomorrow.
The next thing to do is to talk to my bank to see how much loan I can afford. I may need to wait a while to save up some more for down payment.