For feeling more positive today. Apparently I need to vent a little to my friends.
For getting my PHR studying in.
For realizing that I only need to do 6 hours posting for my volunteer job and that I still do about double what’s required in that time. Feeling pretty good about that.
For seeing Wreck-It Ralph. I was better than I expected and a really great story about self-discovery.
For feeling pretty damn good at the end of the day.
Today I stumbled on this talk about how Americans’ thinking on nonprofit management is holding our charity efforts back. I loved the questions he asked and the challenge he threw down. Do you really need to go broke helping others?
For the safety of my family in Oklahoma, currently no harm from the tornadoes there.
For watching Argo and seeing a true tale of heroism and courage. Amazing courage on the part of Tony Mendez all those years ago.
For friends who refuse to let me wallow no matter how crappy and pissy I try to be. They believe I’m better than that.
For pasta caprese for dinner and a whole pint of Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia for dessert. I will have to run tomorrow for it but it made me happy.
This morning I found that PPFA job interviewed for and never heard back on has been re-advertised. That was sort of like the straw and I’ve felt like crap ever since. So the best way I can explain it is that I feel like Tantalus, the Greek who pissed off the gods thus getting stuck in a pool of water which he couldn’t drink from and under a fruit tree which he couldn’t eat from. I know I’m feeling sorry for myself but I don’t know how to escape from this hellacious torture…
For getting all the boxes and extra wall hangings out to the storage unit. There are only a couple of boxes left now and hanging up the pictures on the wall.
For more Big Bang Theory to keep me company all day.
For cleaning the house and vacuuming and clean sheets.
For having access to a dolly on each end of the storage run which saved me SO much time.
For things still seeming easier than they used to.
Focus for this week is getting a morning fitness routine going.
Run 1 – Monday
Run 2 – Tuesday
Run 3 – Thursday
Swim 1 – Wednesday
Swim 2 – Friday
Bike Ride – Saturday
Total – 0 Cal
1. What did I learn/remember last week? Connections are important.
2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week? Finally getting drugs for my ADHD.
3. Which moment from last week was the most memorable and why? Seeing and feeling all the support at the luncheon. Reminded me of the importance of supporting others.
4.What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week? The conference on Thursday.
5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful? Review the week and set up a schedule.
6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week? The special kind of loneliness that comes from ending an intimate relationship.
7. What did I spend the most time on last week? Was that good or bad? Getting the prescription for ADHD. It was good even though very stressful.
8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped? Anger, frustration and feelings of pathetic-ness over the state of my life… I know it’s not as bad as all that; just feeling sorry for myself.
9. What have I been avoiding that needs to get done? 1) Taking more stuff to the storage unit. Will need to rearrange the tires and drive in DC. 2) Exercising.
10. What opportunities are still on the table? Big conference on Thursday. Three professional network events. Seeing Sa on Wednesday. T might be in town next weekend. The new Star Trek movie.
11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to? I haven’t talked to Grandma or SG in a while and should probably reach out.
12. Is there anyone that deserves a big ‘thank you’? Dr. M for being patient with me all week so that I could start drugs. Cy for keeping me distracted and letting me vent several times this week. Ct for checking in on me. Lt for checking in on me.
13.How can I help someone else this coming week? Help myself by getting back into a fitness return.
14. What are my top 4 goals for the next 3 months?
#1 – Find a job in DC.
#2 – Complete my MSA capstone project.
#3 – Complete a sprint triathlon
#4 – Pass my PHR certification
15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?
#1 – Had a great info interview with Lr and signed up for 3 more networking events next week. Met a couple great people to network with this last Saturday. Completed JSAP modules through Day 8.
#2 – Watched the required class session and talked to both LS and the professor. Did some initial research on image rights.
#3 – E-mailed my god brother about a training plan.
#4 – Looked up some sites for video training.
16. What’s the next step for each goal?
#1 – Finish JSAP day 5 and 9 and then work JSAP days 10-14 this week. Create a plan for and then go to the conference on Thursday.
#2 – Set up a detailed plan
#3 – Air up bike tires. Sign up for an event. Design a training plan.
#4 – Finish reading chapter 6. Do some of the online tests.
17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week? Seeing what the conference brings. Seeing Sa on Wednesday. That T may be here on the weekend.
18. What are my fears? That I’ll never have what I want, that I’ll end up alone.
19. What am I most grateful for? For a wonderful family and supportive friends.
20. What can I do to make life more beautiful today? Think happy thoughts.
For a lovely soaky bath.
For a great brunch honoring some awesome women making a big difference in the world.
For enjoyable conversation and getting to know new people.
For a Big Bang Theory marathon to cheer me up when I was feeling lonely.
This was an interesting thought for me. It’s a story about a bunch of broken people who are trying to find their way through life. Every body in this film has issues. I like the thought that every one finds a way through their own craziness to find a silver lining. A thought that gives me hope that I’m not totally lost in this pursuit of happiness.
For the amazing German engineering in my Audi. The fact I was able to go from 70 kph to 0 in about 2 seconds… Well, I always prefer avoiding accidents to having them.
For getting to see Silver Linings Playbook tonight. It was a good film with a happy message.
For finally getting my drugs. They seem to be helping.
For getting 3 big items over to the storage unit and clearing out more spaces.
For a good call with a recruiter whom I was referred to by Lr. I couldn’t fill the job so I told him and then offered to help.
For wine to calm me and Ct on Skype to distract me.
I finally started on the drugs today and it’s hard to explain. There’s a difference but it feels like nothing. Yes, nothing. I don’t feel like anything has changed but things feel better in general. It sounds weird even to me but today, Lumosity was less frustrating on a couple of the games that I’ve struggled with lately. I’m trying not to jump to conclusions too quickly and just pay attention to how things are going. Hmmm…
For Cy’s call finally getting me out of bed this morning.
For making the follow up phone call on the job application from last week. I didn’t get the job but I also now know why (they had already hired).
For finding out that the networking event is next THURSDAY, not Wednesday. Had to rearrange some appointments but better than finding out next Wednesday.
For finally finding a pharmacy with the drugs in stock. The prescription has been dropped off and I’m hoping I will be able to pick it up in the morning and start seeing how they work for my ADHD.
For the Netflix DVD’s arriving and watching Skyfall while eating Mac & Cheese for dinner :)
... a really big part of this whole thing. Timing of meeting G and he’s not yet in a place to move into a new relationship. Timing of looking for jobs, when applying too late means not being considered. Just frustrated by this concept which seems to hamper all that I want in life.
For not NEEDING to do anything today and then getting things done.
For another surprise call from Cy this afternoon. I’m glad I can be there for her while she’s going through things.
For a good day of networking with possible face-to-face meetings with 3 people with whom I’ve been chatting online.
For spending a couple of hours this afternoon researching my capstone project. I just love research :)
For getting out of the apartment to do small things like taking out the trash and picking up the May Hill Rag.
For a call with my parents.
I’ve recently met a woman recovering from ovarian cancer. She was self-employed prior to the diagnosis and so her income dwindle to nothing during the treatment. Today, she found out her car needs repairs and the cost is significant. I know from being unemployed the fear of outstanding bills and needing more than I can afford. I know from watching KT going through her cancer that if I can help I should. I can’t help her the way she needs so I’m putting this out to everyone. Help if you can. Share if you can’t. I think even a small amount from enough people would make a difference.
Yesterday appears to have been more emotionally draining that I thought. The stress of ending things with G and not having the PP process go as would like have affected me more than I thought. Yesterday’s talk with the ADHD doc brought up a lot of old emotions too, so getting out of bed this morning was difficult and addressing my to do list was almost impossible. My elephant had nothing to give today…
I miss the sharing of the day. The fact that he cared. I keep thinking I could just pick up the phone and he’d be there, just like before.
The hardest part is that he wanted me, but he couldn’t say that he’d want me forever. Perhaps if he weren’t going to be half a world away for another year… Perhaps a lot of things. I just know that I felt really good with him and the wrenching apart is what causes the pain.
For an amazing phone interview with Lr and the three network events that resulted from it.
For a great office hour session with the Career HMO folks. Feeling better everyday about next phase of my career.
For making it to my ADD doctor’s appointment even though bad traffic made me very late.
For fresh baked pizza for dinner.
For catching up on all my TV shows as I do my volunteer jobs.
For reaching out to friends for ways to make my life better, even in the small ways.
