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I’m beginning to think the only way I can do this is to live by myself. My boyfriend has lived his whole life in a pig stye, and I can’t change his habbits, and I can’t stand living the way we do for much longer. It stresses me out so much. More than I ever thought a mess could. It is getting to the point where I almost don’t think it’s worth trying to keep our relationship going, if it’s always going to be this way. The stress is so bad that it has started causing us to fight more than we ever did before we lived together, because I’m always on edge. Because the mess gets me so stressed, it doesn’t take much else to send me over the edge and I start nagging him about everything, and if he gets deffensive or frustrated with me, I break down. I’ve never felt so unhappy so constantly in my whole life, and I hate it. I hate what I become when I’m around the mess. I hate how discontent and stressed I am. I don’t deserve that, and niether does he. It gets to the point that I’m just depressed. I don’t want to do anything, or go anywhere. I’m not tired, but all I do is lay around. It’s not worth cleaning, because it won’t even last a day. I just don’t see any other way around that. I’m about to give up on “us”.
Peeglet's Life List
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1. Stop picking my lips
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2. Make more friends
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3. Keep my house clean
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4. Learn to say no
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5. Learn to belly dance
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6. Get something published
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7. Stop caring what other people think of me
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8. Get married
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9. Have a baby
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10. have strait teeth
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How I did it: I kept applying and applying and didn't lose hope. I tried to use the internet at first, but got absolutely no results that way. The most important thing I discovered was finding a way to keep my phone on. I had to borrow money to do that, but it's pretty impossable to find a job without a phone. It got rough for awhile, but I managed. I now work at Tetco. Read how I did it…
How I did it: I spent a couple hours thinking up everything about myself that I could. I had to reach back to my early childhood, as well as things that are going on right now, and random facts about myself and my personality. It was fullfilling, if not tedious. Read how I did it…
How I did it: It was really hard at first, because I was very addicted to soda. My dentist told me that the corn syrup in sodas sticks to your tooth enamel and not even brushing gets it off, and it just eats away at it. As I've already got weak tooth enamel, he suggested I stop drinking soda. I had to start drinking alot of water, juice or tea. The hardest place to not drink soda is at fast food restaraunts, because they generally only have soda, … Read how I did it…
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I’m trying a whole new approach. Instead of saying I’m just going to quit RIGHT NOW, I’m cutting back. For a month, I only let myself pick once a day, and now I’m trying every other day. It’s difficult on the days I’m “not allowed” to pick, but by reminding myself that I only have to wait until tomorrow, I’ve been successful for about a week now. Once that gets easy, I will try every third day, and then every fourth day, then once a week, then not at all. If I gradually cut back like that, I’m hoping by the time I completely quit it won’t be that challenging. Here’s to hope!
after over 3 months without any sign of hope, I finally have my first interview!!! It’s at a Tetco, tomorrow morning. I’m so excited…and SO SCARED! I have worked in other gas stations for a total of 2 1/2 years, so I shouldn’t have any problem. I am 90% sure I will have a job tomorrow. cross fingers wish me luck!
