I'm doing 11 things
But it still hurts so much. Ive seen him twice since we broke up. We were together for 8 years. Both times he’s been with her. It’s been 3 months now since we split. I have a new boyfriend too. Last night I wondered if I’m in a rebound relationship. Last night I completely broke down. Both times i saw him he didnt speak to me. 8 years and now i dont even get a hi how ya doin? I felt invisible. I try to remember everything that was wrong with the relationship and sometimes that helps but sometimes it doesnt. Writing this makes me want to cry. I know my life is much better without him but can i ever truly let him go? When will the pain go away? I gave so much to him and for years he didnt even care. I think sometimes it hurts because I failed at making it work. As much as I tried it didnt last. In the end I broke up with him because we werent happy and I know i did the right thing. But how do you get over the what ifs and stop wondering what could of been? My new boyfriend tried to tell me he loved me and I didnt let him. I dont want to love anyone right now. There’s too much pain.
Pepper79's Life List
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1. play better ball
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2. deal with it
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3. i wanna do an ollie
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4. be funnier
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5. Dont let the past cloud my future.
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6. Make it all the way through the haunted prison without peeing my pants
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7. get my motorcycle license
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8. Find my patience
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9. FINISH COLLEGE!
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10. get in shape
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11. I dont want to hurt when i see him anymore
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