go for a walk on westcliff today w/ baci.
go for a walk on westcliff today w/ baci.
interrupted or no sleep from snoring—leads to anger, yelling, etc.
fix this by sleeping in the other room, make sure the bedroom is clean & comfortable & we go to sleep early, this helps with good sleep.
have been taking extra medication, which seems to be helping. may need to just increase the ripsperdal. need to talk to my psych dr. about it. scared about changing my health plan and moving away from santa cruz and away from my dr’s.
sleep is going ok but last night sucked. lots of distubance from snoring etc.
tonight will put new sheets on the bed, use new pillows & pillow cases, hope that helps.
try to take a nap today.
go to zumba at 11:30 at skyport. go to fit & yoga at 5:30. take baci for a walk. (or 2 walks.)
idea: exercise!! take baci for a bike ride.
ate too much chocolate mousse last night when going out to dinner. went home alone to sc to take care of the cat, and went out for dinner with a friend.
f doesn’t like me to dance without him, or spend time with guys. well he says it just has to be equal. so i have to find ways i can exercise and have fun without guys. so it is a big change giving up salsa. which was a good way to lose weight.
so from now on i have to have a healthy way to relax and have fun when i go home on my own. i want to write these journals every morning.
I could go to tai chi today. but it’s too late now. started at 10 and it’s so cold out.
ok. so plan.
go for walk on westcliff with baci.
my budget is totally out of control right now. i’ve been spending way too much on my credit card, and i just spend a ton of money replacing the faucets at f’s house when i can’t really afford it but i could not stand those faucets they were impossible to use. so i’m glad i did it :)
anyways i guess it’s just baby steps with the budget. and better to look at it once a week than totally ignore it.
anyways. with living in san jose, my main options for managing my weight are: exercising at home (sit ups, push ups, exercise videos.)
walking to the park and back (if i do this 2 or 3 times a day that’s good)
riding my bike on the path.
going to the gym.
doing yoga at home.
foods to cook: stir fry at home, salads, homemade soup.
snacks: yogurt, fruit, (bring fruit from new leaf) or just buy seasonal fruit from safeway. if it’s seasonal it’s still good.
was 148 yesterday, forgot to weigh myself today but i think i’m about the same.
i have basically moved in with f, and we have set the wedding date for early october, we have to talk to my mom about paying for it and then we will set a date at hakone gardens.
so, basically, huge changes and a lot of “positive” stress. but i am managing my weight (i think) although it’s hard to tell if the only measurement is the scale but i’m trying to eat right and exercise. it feels like the gym here and the grocery store don’t have the same kind of offerings that they have in santa cruz.
there is so much fresh fruits and vegetables and health food in santa cruz and amazing yoga studios there. here it’s not the same, fruits and vegetables not as fresh, not as good.
but i’m doing my best.
maybe i will bring stuff from new leaf drive it over here.
i just need a cooler to carry the cold stuff. but i can buy a big grocery bag of fruits and veggies.
at 148 this am. now it is nightime. idea for today. try not to eat anything else tonight if possible. it’s almost 9pm, so f will be home soon. in the meantime, just relax and rest. brush my teeth.
148 this morning. ate homemade juice for breakfast with oatmeal. should get my period in about a week. unless i am pregnant. which is a possibility. ?
149ish this morning. i want to start writing entries every morning. it felt like it was much easier to manage my weight and health in santa cruz, but it is nice living with f.
idea: buy healthy food at new leaf.
sleep is going ok, despite snoring. need to make it a focus to take a nap every day. have to sleep in 2nd bedroom (usually wake up in the middle of the night every day and have to go to other bedroom.)
I miss those days of sleeping alone… but at the same time when f doesnt snore it’s great. have to buy a comforter so we can both be warm enough. maybe that will help.
being alone when f is at work. trying to go to the gym so i’m not stuck at home. don’t have motivation to clean… eating too much. only keep healthy food or cook vegetables. (ie artichokes, roast vegetables, make soup.)
clean the carpet, vacuum…
for motivation? watch 10 min of tv, then turn off, or do a yoga pose, take vitamins, call a friend, make a list of motivations.
motivations for work when home alone:
1) yoga pos3
2) 10 min nap
3) read book
4) 10 min tv
5) call a friend
5) play guitar
6) write in 43things or in journal
7) take a bath
8) walk around the block
9) walk or drive to park, walk around park
10) ride bike on path
11) give baci a shower
I am going to SF today with F. and he has paid for me for a lot lately so this goal will probably take a break. i will try to find something healthy and reasonable priced…
call psych to talk to her about med increase.
i need to call my psychiatrist because we increased my risperidal, because i’ve been so stressed about my uncle’s death. it’s been really hard on everyone. especially my mom. and of course especially my aunt and my cousins. we are all really sad about it and it doesn’t seem real. but it is really sad of course. i miss him a lot and i loved him a lot. i dont’ know what to say. it is awful. i wanted to cry a lot but f kept telling me not to cry. i need to convince him crying can be healthy sometimes. or jsut to let me cry if i need to.
148 this am. went out to eat twice yesterday, got a free meal for lunch kale salad with tempeh, and for dinner f took me out to pasta pomodoro but i was restarined and got the seasonal vegetables with cannelini beans and farro. however for dessert i got the really super rich hot chocolate that is basically melted chocolate… Sooo good. but i still lost weight today.
I want to go to tango tonight. I just have to convince F.
maybe when he goes to work i can go with him and dance with him before or after… but he usually goes for a long time. maybe i could hang out in downtown mountain view. i wonder if there is a club one near there?