Pezshannan




I'm doing 15 things
 

Pezshannan's Life List

  1. 1. Learn to play the guitar
    12,665 people
  2. 2. overcome my fear of death
    1 entry
    48 people
  3. 3. Start an independent record label
    248 people
  4. 4. Lose 45 pounds
    337 people
  5. 5. be a great mom
    487 people
  6. 6. live life fearlessly
    44 people
  7. 7. finish my screenplay
    233 people
  8. 8. Be an extra in a movie
    1,428 people
  9. 9. move to seattle
    466 people
  10. 10. write a book and have it published
    2,702 people
  11. 11. Make a movie
    2,961 people
  12. 12. travel more
    2,916 people
  13. 13. change someones life
    1,313 people
  14. 14. Take acting classes
    108 people
  15. 15. breastfeed for 1 yr
    1 entry
    32 people

How I did it
How to fall in love with someone who will love me back
It took me
300 days
It made me
ecstatic


How to stop caring what other people think of me
It took me
1200 days
It made me


Recent entries
breastfeed for 1 yr
This will be a long journey. 8 months ago

My son is 7 weeks and I have been breastfeeding/pumping and supplementing with formula (formula only about 4 bottles a week. It is very time consuming, but I know how good it is for him. I hope I can make it. I have wanted to give up a few times, but I just keep telling myself one more week. It gets easier every week, it really does.



overcome my fear of death
Recently... 8 months ago

I am so glad that there are other people who are afraid too. I too typed in “overcome my fear of death” into google, and it brough me here. I have been on this site, but not in a long time.
I had my second son on January 16th via emergency c-section. It was after that that I have had this nagging fear. It will not go away and I find myself unable to enjoy life right at the moment. Sometimes I can forget I am afraid, but when I am alone in thought, and especially while lying in bed before I go to sleep I am so scared. I had an anxiety attack the other day because I thought I was dying.
My fear really is that I dont have enough time here on earth to do everything I want to do. i am 29 years old and probably 1/3 of the way done with my life at least, and I think that it has gone by in the blink of an eye.
I fear that I wont be with my loved ones after I die, and that there is no afterlife and once we are gone, we are gone. I am afraid of not existing. I want to exist!
I hope this goes away because I dont think that my life will be a very good one if I am afraid all the time.




 

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