PinBallAnnie

And I don’t. I like all things, and no one thing.

What to do?

So the hard truth is that my boyfriend and I are finally done, after two years of continual struggle. A better decision for us both, but a hard one.

I was having such a hard time being excited about anything, or interested in anything, because it was so draining. And that’s no way to love anyone more generously, let alone myself or even him.

We don’t work, his chidhood issues of abuse are too deep, and the best way to love generously is to let go of “us”.

And focus on loving myself and my faithful friends and taking lots of baths, making lots of soul-healing meals.

Made a decision to move, even with some level of financial caution, post-raise. Sorting all month-so much art and photographs and memorabilia! Got rid of art supplies I never use, donated to a local arts organization called Smoke Farm. Clothes I don’t wear-gone! A cute sofa that just wasn’t ever comfy—gone!

Still maybe not enough to go from my three bedroom apartment+garage/studio to a studio apartment, but I’m ready. I can continue to peel my onion layers, and I can be creative with space!