PixySix

I know that every bad thing I have done or gone through has only shaped and forged me into the person I am now, but I still wish that I could have become better through some happier life lesson.

I regret the things that I didn’t do. I regret the way I’ve become so bitter and distrustful. I regret tending the bad relationships and letting the good, healthy ones dry up and die. I regret not catching on sooner. I regret not taking Sciences in High School so that I could be a Bio major now. I regret loving him so much and knowing we’d be together forever (and selling my furniture because of this) only o have him change his mind.

These regrets swim through my mind. They are part of what I am. I have to let go of a part of myself even though I am still weak from giving too much of myself to people who only tossed those pieces aside.

I really don’t believe in climbing a corporate ladder, getting rich quick with a brilliant idea, reinventing the wheel, building a better mousetrap, riding someone’s coat tails, the ‘nine to five’, living to work, nuclear families, the miracle of childbirth, blood being thicker than water, finding God, finding myself, making my mark, saving the world, destroying the world, raising Hell, securing my lineage, having my name carried on, being remembered after I die, soul mates, enduring love, the comfort of family, the betterment of mankind or especially in divine purpose.

I feel like a freak for not wanting what everyone else seems to want so badly that they can get mad at me for not wanting it too. I hate being so different, but none of the things that you all want appeal to me. I don’t want to be some crazy woodswoman who doesn’t bathe and talks to herself.

So what do I do instead?

I just can’t figure this out.

I’m sorry Foos, I’ll always love you, but the show just wasn’t great. It was good, not great.
Dave Grohl has a loooot of energy, but expressing it by randomly shouting ‘Yeah!’ and ‘Let’s go!’ in the middle of songs is annoying.