PoeticRookie

Here is the first proper poem I have ever written, ever! It flowed nicely and I am happy with what I have made. I know what it’s about but you can improvise ;) So here it is; Roses On a Stone:

I picked a rose for you and brought it back home
Laid it on the bed and waited on my own

You never showed up so I took the rose
Watered it with my eyes and let it grow

I zipped up my coat and walked out the door
Watched the birds fly as I heard there was more

You’d show if you could but you left this world
Long before I knew so I’m sorry girl

Crashing down to Earth was my love and my life
I sat in the armchair by the firelight

I hold a rose for you to put on your stone
As I lay on the bed and grow on my own

When I talk about growing up, I mean I want to let go of the past. Details spared, there have been things I have seen, experienced and heard I hoped I never would as for the majority of my life has been calm and settling. Ever since this person came into the scene, people left my life and more, my life felt like it was turned upside down, inside out , thrown across the living room and stamped on. These things have left me scarred in some way or another and I haven’t let go since they all happened. I have always questioned myself about how to let these things go, but I have never known how to do it. How do you let things go that you were apart of? How do you stop letting memories weigh you down? If you have an answer, I will praise you for the rest of my life, I swear!

It’s getting to a point where I feel like the world is moving without me. I have failed school, left college, haven’t found a job which means I don’t have any money to drive, buy my own clothes etc. and I am spinning around in circles. I need to choose a path, not just any old path, but one where I can walk down and not be misguided by other people’s words. Yeah, I quit college because of what someone else said! My friend, Jamie, told me that quitting college and getting a minimum-wage job is the way to go. What a fool I was. Damn it I wish I had stayed on. If I’m inspired to do anything in my life, it’s acting. My parents, well, nobody knows what I truly love doing. In my school drama classes I felt like a celebrity ha ha. I loved acting that much!! I was young, foolish, listening to what people thought was best for me and not thinking what I thought was best for me. I was blinded by other people, by their words, their beliefs and I regret following those words, those beliefs…I know the people I love were just trying to help me, but I need to let them know I want to start my own life. I know I must change my life now before it is too late; before it ends quicker than it begun.