PrettyLittleDitty

ok ive started fasting to lose alot of weight fast i kno ts gna work cos it has before but unfortunatley last tym i ended up binging afterwards so put it all back on quite quickly… UGH!

I hate the first few days i feel so tired and run down and im gettin headaches alll the time but im not gna give in and take any tabs that will just end up making me sick nd i dnt perticularly want that! ice cold water works just as well or with a slice of lemon… yum [hah..] i miss my food lol water and cups of tea just isnt very exciting… oh well it will b worth it and now ill make sure i get bk in2 food slowly fruit n veg blah blah no high cal crap!!

easier said then done tho.. well see! =]

Ive been trying to do this for quite some time now, and can i just say its no easy feat!! EVEYONE judges people its basic human instinct but its hard to tell yourself when to stop sometimes!! I actually think im taking it wayyyy to far now not just with people but with past experiences too most people get over things after a week at most im literally still thinking about things i did last year and the year before and still cringing. The annoying thing is if i actually thought about it logicly i know no one else REALLY cares about the stupid or embarresing things ive done in my past they have all more then likely forgotten about them but somehow i cant seem to convince myself that its actually true!! Its really irritating knowing what your thinking is rediculious and sometyms quite harmfull to myself. but its impossible to stop thinking. And you really cant control what it is your thinking about at any time the most random thing could pop into your head sometimes its good or slightly embarresing when your sitting on the bus on your own an somthing hillarious that happened suddenly comes to mind and you cant help but laugh. but then other time when your on your own and you remember the not so good times UGH!! im doing it now!! noone even cared and yet i think its a HUGE deal… AAARRRGGGHH!!!

“there must be some way of geting out of here…”

I sound depressed… humph..

I admire ur efforts littleruby…

Howww can u motivate urself so much now especially with work aswell i keep using that as my excuse for NOT gyming it allthough i hav a day off tomorrow and ive been sayin all week id go n hit the gym bt looks lyk ive jus made plans t meet a friend in town i guess i could get up earlier and go bt… i HIGHLY doubt i will!! ive bin told it only takes something like 10-15 days for something to become a habit so if i stuck with it [getting up early and heading up t the gym] aftr that it would be just a normal routine bt its just so hard t start!!... i rekon ill have t get myself a personal trainer up there anyway because i dnt want t build muscle i literally only want t lose weight so ill need someone t tell me wot machines do what nd soforth… i dnt think u pay for that sort of think or do you??? hummm hopefully not as that will be yet another incentive for me to put off goin untill at least the end of the month when im paid… UGH!! im actually never gna get there my membership card will just continue t gather dust…. =[