This is the least likely of my goals to actually come true cause while i’m not tone deaf i sound terrible. Could be a problem, perhaps.
Maybe with lessons i can sound better?
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When I was a teenager I fought through the hell that was my own inner self and came out the other end scarred but able to cope with the outside world for the first time in my life.
I had what can only be put as a ‘difficult’ childhood, I barely spoke until I was eighteen. I got through it by suppressing everyhing. I remember but small snatches of my childhood. I thought I had gotten rid of the depression which crippled me.
One problem has reared its ugly head in the last year. I met someone who can only be put as the man of my dreams. I’m truly happy and feel safe.
One problem with feeling safe is all that I’ve supressed is coming back and once again my emotions are all over the place and depression has once again latched onto me and refuses to let go. My first step in combatting this is to talk about it. I want to beat it this time and not just suppress it.
One day I will feel whole again.
After struggling through my teenage years I thought I’d stopped caring what people thought of me. I, in fact, cared very little.
Recently however thoughts have started plagueing me again about what others think of me and how they perceive me. Part of this stems from the fact I actually found out what some people thought of me and didn’t like it. The other part is that my self esteem was almost shattered last year by a sudden onset of deep depression. I’m still working to get over the depression and mentally I’ve reverted to the insecure little teenager I once was. I don’t like her and want to be who I was at the beginning of last year. My first step is to stop caring what others think of me. This was the first step last time and hopefully will work again.
I just had a really horrific week and everyone around me knew it. I treated everyone like dirt and now know I must make amends.
I’m deeply in love with my boyfriend and we have talked marriage.
At the moment I’m waiting for the question because both of us believe that it is his position to do the asking. He’s said he knows when he wants to ask but refuses to tell me (mildly frustrating but really sweet)So on this goal I await his question to which he already knows the answer.
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