Pyper47

Just started my apprenticeship in stonemasonry last month and hoping that i can go all the way the class is great full of great guys very funny i seem to fit in okie so fingers crossed btw hope everyone else does well in theres good luck everybody!!!

Before i say anything i’m not tryin to seek sympathy (i’ve been accused of that in the past) i’m not sure what was wrong with me as a child language or communication problems of some description or something like that but because of this i’ve never been able to socialize with anyone (at least the majority of the time) and the very very few that i have become friends with i seem to just hurt them or make things complicated i don’t mean to i just can’t seem to connect with anyone or stay connected one of the worst parts about it is that i have people supporting me but i can’t talk to them (mum, dad, family etc) i’m not gonna lie and say my lifes shit because it isn’t quite frankly i don’t think i deserve a fraction of what i have aswell as not being able to find that special someone it just really hurts to know (or to fully believe)that nobody could possibly love me that way and i’ve tried soo long to be strong and wait it out all alone but i can’t and i guess what i’m really saying is i need a friend(s)

p.s if anyone feels the same way and needs a friend i’d like to make new friends if you want to talk add me on msn (if u have it)
mobilemonkey47@hotmail.co.uk