I found an amazing friend. I have infact…two. My amazing boyfriend, Austin…and Brett. Brett is crazy and totally not afraid to be his self. He is teaching me the same thing. :)
RJW_1991's Life List
1. Stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.
2. get over it
4. trust people more
5. Not be a hypochondriac!
6. To live instead of exist
7. stop procrastinating
8. not feel depressed anymore
9. stop thinking about suicide
10. Stop caring what other people think of me
11. stop lying to myself
12. be a good daughter
13. be ok with being alone
14. Take more pictures
15. Worry less.
16. talk to someone.
17. Kiss in the rain
18. cope with being bipolar
19. know that there is nothing wrong with me
20. accept compliments better
21. get better grades
22. become a photographer
23. become more self confident.
24. love life more.
25. be happy with what I have
26. show people I'm not selfish
27. show everyone who I really am
28. start believing myself
29. stop caring what other people say
30. become my own person
31. pass my sophmore year
32. go to college
33. not be afraid to cry
34. have a better viewpoint of life
35. become happier
36. open up to people
37. not feel guilty
38. Live near the ocean
39. Get better at Sign Language (ASL)
I wish I would have another chance,
I waited you’re time before,
And now I wish I could open,
This now closed door.
The three words I expressed,
They are cutting me deeper and deeper,
I’m falling down this landslide,
And it’s getting steeper and steeper.
My first waking thought,
Maybe I’ll get to hold you again,
I carry that thought throughout the day,
And feel accomplished that I held myself together.
I can still feel your voice,
And touch your hand,
But then wake up…
Will this ever end?
All I want, Darling…and all I need,
Is not to imagine your saying to me,
“I promise I’ll never leave you…I’ll never break you…”
But you would be breaking your promise, wouldn’t you?
You’re gone right now,
But my emotions for you are still here,
Pretty soon everything,
Will be gone forever, I fear.
Details are what make us unique,
You and me had so much detail,
You left me cold and lifeless,
My soul feels so frail.
People in this world,
Each goes their own unique way,
They start many pathways,
Until they find the path that is ‘the way’.
I can’t breath,
And the world is spinning,
All this pain I feel,
Why are you grinning?
It seemed as though,
You took the pain away,
But now that you’re gone…hand in hand with someone else,
What am I ever to say?
I will continue down,
This path we were supposed to walk down together,
Maybe someday I’ll meet you halfway…
And we can continue down that pathway.
I got 100% on my prject in Literature. I am pretty sure I passed my test in Algebra. I know I’m going to pass my test in health today. I organized my notebook in ASL 1. Now I just need to keep it going. =]