Raiveran

is having more square footage of her skin turn numb. Should I worry?



I'm doing 32 things
 

Raiveran's Life List

  1. 1. take care of myself
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    223 people
  2. 2. be more authentic
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    14 people
  3. 3. be brave
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    370 people
  4. 4. be more honest about how I feel
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    3 people
  5. 5. finish remodelling my home
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    1 person
  6. 6. Improve my posture
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    2,351 people
  7. 7. overcome my social fear and dislike of people
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    1 person
  8. 8. do one thing a week towards my career goal
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    1 person
  9. 9. sew myself my perfect outfit
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    1 person
  10. 10. buy my remembrance ring
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    1 person
  11. 11. learn to be charismatic
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    1 person
  12. 12. write a roleplaying game setting
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    1 person
  13. 13. feel beautiful
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    1,840 people
  14. 14. build an eco-friendly house
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    103 people
  15. 15. Become a Knight
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    18 people
  16. 16. rid myself of my curse
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    3 people
  17. 17. dump my baggage and crawl out of my coffin
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    1 person
  18. 18. Have a different life by this time next year
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    60 people
  19. 19. settle my mother's estate
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    2 people
  20. 20. get married, be happy, stay married
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    6 people
  21. 21. get a real support network
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    1 person
  22. 22. get a job I love
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    805 people
  23. 23. Photograph answers to 20 questions about me
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    29 people
  24. 24. climb a rock wall
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    17 people
  25. 25. work my body
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    1 person
  26. 26. sing
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    1,903 people
  27. 27. To fall in love: True love! Crazy love! The love i want to have till my last breath.
    68 people
  28. 28. prove to him that I'm the one
    1 person
  29. 29. build up my own sense of character
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    1 person
  30. 30. evolve
    42 people
  31. 31. meet awesome and fantastic people and become friends with them
    1 person
  32. 32. find a set of Star Wars books that don't suck
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    1 person
Recent entries
Live in another country (read all 6 entries…)
Ugh... good and bad and a little more lame 1 week ago

Well, I have to say that travelling abroad is an Essential Experience for a human. It teaches you a lot, and not all of it (or most of it) is wonderful. There are good survival skills and things that happen make you stronger, but I don’t know if I’d call it an enjoyable experience. I didn’t get to go to many of the places I wanted to, and that really contributes to determining what kind of time you’re going to have. Travel is exciting and new, but you start to wonder why you care when you move from place to place you have no interest in or connection to. Know what types of things you want to see, and have at least some idea of where to go to see them. Sometimes you have to bite the bullet and not be cheap to get somewhere good.

I have to say, I got sick of travel and living in the UK after 4 weeks. A good deal of it was I was constantly worried I’d starve, another part was I didn’t really care about old castles or decaying old buildings in big cities. So I was going from place to place with little to no interest in my surroundings or their culture. Yeah, that pretty much killed it.

Also, it’s a real eye-opener realizing how spoiled you are living in a place with universally accepted hygeine standards and then living in a place where you don’t even want to touch the walls, let alone the toilet. Not wanting to touch anything in your flat is horrible. It makes it impossible to relax, and really just made me hate being in London. My life was 5 times cleaner when I lived in a campsite.

Adjusting to the trials of travel is, as I’ve said, a good experience to strengthen you. Just keep the other things I’ve mentioned in mind to hopefully direct your living – static or otherwise – towards things that you enjoy or take comfort in, so you won’t feel so alienated and homesick.


settle my mother's estate (read all 8 entries…)
Untitled 1 week ago

Now she won’t call me back, oh god. My friend came back from the UK, totally broke, hungry the last week he was there. I only have so much guilt to apply to that, though; there’s nothing I can do about it. But I wonder if the executor is on vacation. Wouldn’t that be marvellous. I need that money. I want it NOW. IN my account, paying the people I owe money to, and allowing me to travel home for the wedding with less stress. I want my money. NOW.


build up my own sense of character
Untitled 1 week ago

Standing up to customers who bully us in the store is hard. They’re so demeaning and rude, it’s hard to stay strong and answer them levelly. I want to crush them, they have no right to abuse us like that. I want to be able to deal with them utterly.


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