I'm doing 23 things
To be wiser sooner rather than later
3 years ago
is important to me. I learn too much on the hind side of things rather than working them out up front. I want the wisdom to analyse things up front so I act more wisely.
Rattus's Life List
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1. Go back to India
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2. Master mathematics
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3. Be a better mom
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4. learn how to make (good) decisions
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5. Return to living in the desert
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6. lose at least 25 pounds
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7. be funny
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8. Apologize to the people I hurt
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9. be wiser
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10. Learn not to say "yes" when I want to say "no"
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11. Start a community garden
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12. Become an activist here and abroad
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13. Not be so shy
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14. Go to Africa
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15. Learn to trust my instincts again
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16. Feel happy again
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17. Work doing what I LIKE to do instead of "settling"
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18. Be a better social person
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19. Learn not to be afraid of heights
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20. Learn to really cook
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21. Travel and travel and travel
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22. Get better at expressing myself
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23. see the northern lights
16,888 people
Recent entries
Hurting people
3 years ago
I seem to hurt people without trying sometimes. I’m not talking about those “little” things. Generally, I’m pretty good about not doing that.
My problem seems to be that I wind up hurting people without trying because I can’t seem to figure out what works and what doesn’t or what I want vs what I don’t, or what I feel I deserve vs what I don’t. I also tend to set aside what I want or need to do in order to make others in my life happy. Eventually, though, that comes back to haunt me because somewhere along the way I have to do things for myself that the other person isn’t (other people aren’t?) too happy about.
I keep thinking I must be passive/aggressive and that maybe I just need to be more aggressive than passive. Whatever that balance is, it eludes me.
I was going back but ....
3 years ago
now it’s all on hold. I have been very few places in this world where being someplace felt so “right.” I just hope the US and its meddlesome ways don’t change the place too much. That would be such a crime.
