RibbonCandy

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll miss the frustrating thrill of trying once I master lucid dreaming.

A few months ago I had a dream I was on a flight of stairs. Suddenly I “saw” myself sleeping in bed (hard to explain) and realized I was dreaming. Back in dreamland, I tried to control my legs and walk up the stairs. I felt like I was made of lead and all of the effort involved made me wake up a little bit. I kept slipping in and out of the dream. I tried to stay asleep and keep moving. It seemed to take forever and I didn’t get very far.

Everything around me was dark, except it looked like there was a spotlight shining from behind me. I’ve seen that effect in Eternal Sunshine. Did it have to do with my eyes being halfway open most of the time? I don’t feel like I’ve really achieved lucid dreaming yet, especially since this was months ago and I haven’t made any progress since. Reading about has given me such extreme respect for the human brain!

My mom doesn’t care that I’m still home, so neither do I. Okay, that’s a lie. I’m so ready to move. I’ve been saving up like crazy. I dream about having my own kitchen. I went to look at a condo nearby and got so excited when I saw it had a pantry. A pantry! I’m pathetic.

Rent or buy? Condo or house? I don’t know what to do, so for now I’m still daydreaming and saving. But I am going to start paying my mom rent. :)

I earned my bachelor’s degree in magazine journalism and now have a full-time job as a copywriter for a non-profit organization. Ever since I graduated in ‘05 I’ve promised myself I’d freelance on the side. I want to keep my interviewing and feature-writing skills sharp and build a good portfolio…I just want to write articles! Besides, there are no bylines in copywriting and I’d love to see my name in print again.

During my last semester in college I had an awesome internship at a trade magazine. I got to interview indie filmmakers and actors. It was fantastic. I keep telling myself and everyone around that I’m going to contact the editor and ask for some freelance work, but for some reason I never do. Why is that?