Ribspur53

Religion is a big thing in my family. When I was little I was devistated because everyone else believed in God and I just couldn’t. I felt so out cast. Why does everyone find it so easy to believe in God and I just can’t? It would bring me to tears. What was wrong with me? I went through years of studing religions trying to find one that I could trully believe in. I was rasied to believe that you NEEDED religion in your life. I felt so lost. One day after praying when I had gotten scared and not feeling better I reolized that I just can’t believe in a higher power. So I gave up religion and declared myself an athiest. It lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. I want to tell my mom, I feel like I’m lying to her. But when my older sister told our mom she was going to give up christianity and start practicing a pagen religion (for the life of me I can’t remember what she called it). My mother shunned her. She complained and ranted about her to my aunts and cousins for months. I want to tell her who I really am and explain to her why I chose this way, but I don’t want to destroy the relationship we have. Someday, mabye.

I love Nate, me and him have been friends forever and we’ve both been through alot together. But every now and then he says some really insensitive stuff that I just want to tell him off or slap him. But I can’t. He is the only friend that I can’t stand up to when he offends me.

I went to the Minneapolis show. It was awsome, dispite the nasty sun burn. I am so not missing 2008!