was at a BBQ Sunday and was offered a beer…I brought my Iced Tea, to help me get by. Luckly, no heavy drinkers at the BBQ. Well, their were 2 of us, and we both weren’t drinking? Hey, nice to have company on the “No Thank you to beer”
I was ‘questioned’ why I did not want a ‘beer’
I was ‘told’ how I wasn’t a ‘big’ drinker
I was also reminded that ’ you can have just 1 ‘
It just shows how interested people are in you. I’ve know these folks for 6 years now. I guess they missed me at the parties we went to, or at the pool over the summer while I was getting blasted !
I’m happy to know that i can choose to drink or not, most people don’t follow your life. The only ones who really care if your drinking or not are the ones looking for a drinking buddy!
Here’s an image for you ladies,
Went to bed last night looking forward to a good nights rest, to no avail. Woke at 3am only to toss and turn, have bad dreams and a racing mindful of thoughts.
At 6am time to rise. I have a feeling of a hang-over without the ‘pleasure’ of AL in my system. Yes, I feel like shit!
Now, my anxiety is running thoughts about getting rest tonight at 9 am in the morning. Will I be able to sleep? Hmmm…maybe a drink or 2 (3,4,5,6,7,) to relax. Blah..Blah…blah.
I have other things to deal with right now in my life.. and AL is on the lowest part of that list… and will not be a influenced in my life!
When I last attempted to remain AL free I used the 99 days of summer. Feeling that a bench mark would help with having an end in sight.
Which it did, by giving me the comfort to know I will not die without AL and that I can still handle life’s situations.
It will be 6 months free of AL on the 6th of May. Not comforting that Cinco de Mayo “deals” are pouring over the radio driving the desire to celebrate. I just keep reminding myself about the losses I suffered, even though they are small ones, and that these can become big!
As I approach my 6 month I will need to keep focus on my decision not to drink and let AL suffer the pain (to do without).