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So I finally picked up this project again today—had only gotten as far as cutting the seams of the pants legs. Today, i stitched the front together, and did a little of the back, but got halted wen i realised i wanted to undo some of the stitching and cant seem to find my seam ripper to undo the excess. I pretty much never lose things in my room, so it’s always odd when I can’t find something in here. Hope the skirt will turn out wearable when all is said and done.

Well since my last entry, I did eventually read the info I had downloaded about how to improve my self-esteem and I got one or two things from it. My esteem did not initially improve from there, but with time, I think I have started to treat myself better and i’m more accepting now of things I never used to like about myself. I wasn’t going to select the “i’ve done this” button because I don’t think i’m fully appreciative of myself just yet, but the point of this goal was just to improve my esteem and I’ve come a pretty good way, and I realize we’re never gonna always like everything about ourselves but my list has narrowed and that’s a pretty big improvement for someone who has focused on hating the same things year after year. So I’m going to click that button and it’s going to feel really good knowing I actually did accomplish this goal, which when I first wrote down I thought I was just writing it down for writing sake, I never thought it was something I could really change cuz like i said, been down on myself about the same things yr after yr. The only thing I wish now is to continue to improve on my esteem and hope that I never regress to my former state of mind.

So I finally did get on with this goal and put the sewing machine to use. But it’s still not enough for me. I don’t feel like I really achieved it because all I did was sew a newer, smaller blouse out of an old blouse, but I didn’t do too bad – I can actually wear it in public, and it looks really neatly done. But I want to sew something I can wear from scratch. Only then will I feel like I can click that “I’ve done this” button.