I did move years ago when I wrote the last entry, I moved out for a year but I ran out of money and couldn’t get a job so I had to move back.
Living at home with my mum again now ut it could be worse. When I have money and I can drive I can maybe see about moving again. Think I would rather move in with friends/boyfriend than on my own though.
I’m not sure if this should even be on my listso it’s not a huge thing but then, it’s something I want so I guess it should absolutely be featured.
There have been some slight developments with a guy I met at the end of May. At the moment it’s on a bit of a hiatus so to speak while some real life sucky stuff gets sorted but he’s interested and we go well together so far.
I told him that when we FINALLY get to meet up again (which maybe well not be until after Christmas) then I expect to be wined and dined with candles and roses etc. XD Well I can dream haha. Even unofficially it’s nice to meet someone and form a connection so easily, makes me think that being single for so long doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m out of the game yet.
Every time I think I have completed this it comes back and bites me in the ass. It’s been months since I’ve even thought about cutting myself and now I’ve done it all over my leg.
I haven’t given up hope yet, I will beat this, it’s just taking a long time. I think to some small extent the ‘tidy desk, tidy mind’ saying rings true. Once I have all my bedroom tidy and clean then I think I will feel happier in the space and probably calmer. That’s top priority at the moment