I'm doing 15 things
like 1000 times.................
18 months ago
I still love it like it’s the first time I saw it~
Rivers2of5's Life List
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1. be a better mom
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2. write a song
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3. do what I can where I am with what I have
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4. go to Australia
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5. find the bracelet my brother gave me
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6. lose 50 lbs
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7. go to Alaska
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8. meet my sister Amy
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9. see the Pacific Ocean
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10. believe in myself
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11. travel Europe
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12. grow a garden
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13. write a book
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14. pay my bills on time
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15. forget about winter guard completely
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Recent entries
I loved it at one point, but not anymore. It takes too much time, effort & money—my money. Running this guard takes him away from me & the kids. I think our daughter was in it this year just to be closer to her dad.
Too much stress, energy, heartache. If I never saw another Winterguard show, flag, rifle or sabre it would be too soon. Too many politics, too much backstabbing, too much drama.
Not even remotely worth all the effort. But he doesn’t see it that way. The season just ended and he’s looking for next year’s show, staff, etc.
He’s so absorbed, no, obsessed with this he doesn’t see that we’re falling apart. Not just he & I, but our family. I try so hard to keep it together, but there’s only so much I can do.
Does this mean not being true to myself?
19 months ago
Does this statement mean that I must conform or compromise what I think needs to be done? Do I have to agree with those around me? What if I’m trying to make things better & people just don’t see that? I know that sounds really, really high & might, but I don’t think he sees what wrong, what’s really, really wrong. I doesn’t see that he’s losing me.
