RocketGirl80

I posted earlier, a year I believe that I wanted a job. I found my first real job in December of 2006 as a Job Developer, stupid huh, but they hired me. Anyhow, my boss didn’t think I was a good fit and fired me 6 weeks later. Bummer. Anyhow, I found my second job two months later as a mental health case manager, loved the job, but my boss was a psychopath and was very emotionally/psychologically abusive which resulted in me suffering a nervous breakdown and being fired shortly after I returned from medical leave. I now do residential direct carefor $9 an hour, poverty wages practically and I have been unable to secure a decent paying job, I can’t live like this.

I suffered from hypochondria from age 7 to about age 22. I am now 26 and have been recovered it IS possible. I will always have anxiety issues, but I am nowhere near where I was 4 years ago. I think in my recovery it was the point where my hypochondria was affecting my life in every angle. I once went to the ER 6 days out of one week, not only did it frustrate my friends and family it was pretty darn pricey even with health insurance. I used to always think I was having a heart attack, had a brain tumor, and one point I sat in my room bawling because I believed that I had Lou Gehrig’s disease. I was afraid I would die in my sleep so I resorted to drinking large amounts of caffeine to stay awake. Caffeine is an upper an it makes you jittery and anxious in large amounts, which is really bad for somebody with anxiety issues. I would get a few hours sleep a night and would only sleep when I passed out from exhaustion. I eventually said I can’t live like this, I went to my doctor and he put me on an antidepressant, Lexapro, which gave me NO side-effects and helped so much. Cognitive behavioral therapy was also very useful.

I’ve been driving for awhile and I can’t imagine not driving. You can do it!