I will graduate in 3 months!!!!! I can hardly believe it. So much time and hard work and it will finally amount to something. I’m doing my final student teaching this semester in 4th and 2nd grade and then I am done with my degree. I can be an actual teacher this coming school year. Crazy and exciting!!
I need to repeat this goal, cuz it was not pretty when I ran it. I did the Disneyland Half Marathon with my brother and sister in law. It was a blast but at about mile 9, my hip flexor started killing me. I had to limp to the finish line. Not as proud of a finish as I would have liked. I’ll do it again sometime.
In 2011 to be exact. I’m a bit behind in my 43thingsing!
I was pretty proud of myself. I’ve only done it the once, but I’ll do it again.
A 4.0 this semester, wahoo! Haven’t pulled that off since my first semester at college. I always seem to get that one A- that throws a wrench in things. This semester was the WORST semester EVER and to pull it off with perfect A’s feels really REALLY great. That brings my cumulative GPA to 3.87, up from 3.85. I’m feeling good! :)
I get to see my 7 year old daughter next week. She has invited me to her school Halloween program. This will be the third time I have seen her since I placed her for adoption, once when she was 6 months old and then this past February. I love this little (not so little now) girl with all my heart. OH how I love and cherish her. I am so excited to be seeing her again and to know that she wants me there. I know that I am important to her, which is amazing. Amazing that her parents have allowed me to be a topic and to exist and to be loved. I’m a grateful girl.
But right now I am feeling very vulnerable. I’m terrified of disappointing her. What if the me in theory is better than the me in reality? What if I can’t live up to my hype? I so don’t want to disappoint her, to let her down. And right now I’m feeling like I can.
::tears::
At Saturday’s 5k, I actually beat my best time by 3 minutes! Yay! I am still not fast by any stretch of the imagination. But I am proving to myself that I can do it and that I can improve. My time was 27 minutes and I was WAY happy with that. I think once I can do it in about 23-24 minutes I will start getting more ready to move to 10k’s. That’s my plan anyway.
Next 5k I’m registered for isn’t til November something. Maybe I can find another one to do between now and then.
So far I can only barely do 5k’s. I’ve done a handful and I have a couple coming up. I need to get better at doing the 5k’s before I can move to 10k’s. My problem in improving lies in the fact that the only time I run is when I am running the 5k. I always seem to forget to train or run on a regular basis. That should be my real goal, to start running on a regular basis, ie. at least 3 times a week.
But long termly speaking, someday… someday, I’d like to run a marathon. I have a LONG way to go!
Wish me luck at the 5k on Saturday. So far my time for these is about 30 minutes. I probably won’t beat that this time, but hopefully I don’t take any longer than that either.
I’m 43things-ing while listening to boring presentations in class. haha! But I’ve done other classes homework too while “listening”. Being smart with the time I’ve got. Yay me!
It is NO GOOD! This poor sweet little boy that is sleeping in my lap as I type does not ever deserve to be yelled at. And yet, that seems to be my way of expressing any frustration with him. I am working on it. Trying not to be so high strung. Hoping I make the changes quickly before he is infused with the gift of yelling too (well more than he already is).
Me and my Chloe! For the first time in 6 1/2 years I got to see my little girl at her request. :) We had dinner together this last February. It was AMAZING!! Completely. So many priceless memories. She is perfect and beautiful and wonderful and I am so lucky to have her and her parents. Did I mention how unbelievable it was to have my 2 children meet each other?? Hudson was so in love with her. It was truly so amazing and special.
I get to see her later this month too. She has invited Hudson and I to her school Halloween program. It is surreal to me that we have this type of relationship now.
A-MAZE-ING!!!
Consider me blessed!
Having a very hard time finding motivation to do anything this semester. Not sure what my problem is, but it is depressing which isn’t helping matters any. I have worked so hard to keep my GPA as high as possible (a 3.85 thank you very much) and I will kick myself if I let it fall this semester. So why don’t I start writing my awful research paper that is due tomorrow?? I don’t know!
Halle-freaking-lujah! I finally have a car. Nothing terribly exciting… an 04 or 02 (I can’t remember) Honda Civic. It should be a good car and its mine. Mine mine mine. What kind of adult hasn’t owned a car in over 4 years. That is craziness. Glad the craziness has come to an end.
Got my Associates last week. It is such a little degree, but it is a degree. I now have a college degree! I’m proud of it. I worked so hard for this. It is hard to be a single mom who goes to school and works. It makes the success that much more rewarding, I think. :) I went to graduation just so that I could have a photo in my cap and gown with Hudson.
Pretty interesting book. Never been the biggest fan of Oprah, which made the book that much more interesting.
I should really try to read more this summer while I have some time.
Finally went to the gym after 6 months of not. Felt so good. First 5k in 2 weeks, that should be interesting. Was able to run 1.5 miles today. Sadly that is quite a bit for me. Think I can double that in time? Either way, I’m just happy to be back to the gym!
1. All the help that my mom offers me. She is my lifesaver.
2. Wonderful neighbors.
3. The Family Relations class that is helping me become a better mother.
4. The beautiful visitor I had in my dream last night. Seeing her face is a blessing whether it be in a dream, a photo, or real life.
5. The relationship I have with my baby boy.
Woo woo! This was my big one, the only one anymore really and it is NO MORE!! I used some of my tax refund and paid the sucker off yesterday. Best part is it isn’t an account that is even open anymore, so no fear that I will use it again. :)
Now I just have my student loans that I don’t have to start paying for a while…. that day is going to suck. Wish I was in debt for a car though, but alas… one just doesn’t fit into my poor student/single mother budget.
I registered on time. I didn’t get all of the classes I wanted, but I got some. This is going to be the first semester where I’ve taken all on-campus classes… no classes online and no classes on the extension campuses. Anyway, on to my classes – - -
First there is, Exploring Teaching. I really needed to get into this class, as you can’t apply to the teaching program until you have taken it. The class always seems to be full, so I was relieved to finally get in it.
Then there is, Health Education in Elementary Schools. Wow, that sounds awesome huh? haha. Not sure what to expect here. This current semester I took Dance in Elementary Schools and thought “How bad can this be?” Well it was bad, really bad, my least favorite class I’ve taken thus far. Hopefully Health Ed is slightly better.
Third class is, Information Resources of Social Science??? WTF! I have not the foggiest idea what that even means… seriously. It is only a one credit hour class, so hopefully is easy smeezy. I needed to either take the class or test out of it. Seeing that I have no clue what it is, I figured why not take the class.
Next is, Trigonometry. SCARY!!! Not a class I had to have exactly, but I was scrambling to find classes that were available and that fit into the times I needed. This class was available and I would probably be taking it down the road anyway, so why not get it out of the way. Right? I’m scared to death!!
And lastly I’m taking, Biological Anthropology. It seems like everyone takes an anthropology class at one point or another, so I’m trying not to be freaked out by this science class. Science is not my strong point. But this class will finish up my general science needs and that makes me happy. The happiness fades when I remember that I will still have to take other science classes, just not for generals.
And there you have it… My Spring line up.
1. The homework I have accomplished last night and today.
2. That I don’t have to take my technology final.
3. That my son has a safe place to play while I am in school.
4. Food in my cupboards!
5. The chance to get a degree, finally.
