Beth

To write down things you would like to do, that you hope will one day do.
But actually getting around to doing them is well…a whole other thing.

I mean the first step is writing them down, accepting that they are goals of yours.
Ive just got to learn to think about them even when im not on 43 things.
hmmmm
I wish myself luck =)

This is by far the hardest thing i have ever tried to not do.
I keep trying, I try to reason with myself

- No one really cares, They are more worried about themselves-
- They either love you or dont. Those who dont, do not matter-

etc..etc..

It doesnt work. So much of my life revolves around this. Lots worry about this too much.
Ive started just doing things like wearing big random dresses everywhere, really out there pieces of clothing. Doesnt really work.
I feel good when wearing them actually.
But id have to wear them everyday.
Guess just have to keep on trying..

No, like the title this isnt really a goal of mine.
Everyone desires to be loved, and to love.
EVERYONE.
Im happy to not love, untill its real. Not the fairytale perception of ‘real’ but honest, open, forgiving love.
Im young i know, and i am in no hurry.
I still have the belief that there is someone out there, not someone whos perfect for each of us. But someone who is close enough that their imperfections are survivable, but most of all what makes them..and through that makes your love for them real.