Rylin

I want to run off to Hawaii for a couple of months. My job is taking it’s toll on me mentally…lately, I’ve found myself in deep depression. I feel like no one understand me @ work, all they care about is getting stuff done. It’s hard. I do love my job, but it’s so intense nowadays that I’m burnt out. I love the people I work with and I’d hate to let my director down. No one is getting time off this year, so its not just me. My mind is starting to resist working. Its hard to get up in the AM. I really need time off to clear my head. It’s a possible risk of losing my job if I ask for a sabbatical, so I don’t know when to ask.

day 4 went well…i was anticipating an upcoming car repair that i could no longer avoid, so by Day 5, Cinco de Mayo, I went to Costco to get all 4 tires replaced…which set me back about 260 dollars…i needed it, so it’s all good.

Yesterday, I started having the urges to buy shit. But I resisted…it’s like having a really bad itch and youre not supposed to scratch. The feeling went away eventually.

However, i did have to run to buy cold medicine.

We’ll see what happens today, Day 3